“A little boy like you coming to a little girl like me and pretending
to speak seriously of marriage.--But let’s be honest with each other
always. Do you promise?”
“I promise.”
“Then, I’ll tell you something. I think it’s splendid of you to go on
loving me when you know that I’m not loving you in return.”
“And I think it’s splendid of you to let me go on loving.”
“But do I?” She eyed him mockingly. Then, with one of those sudden
changes to wistfulness, “What Horace has done has made me frightened.
I’m afraid--and I’m only telling you because we’ve promised to be
honest--I’m so afraid that you’ll leave me, and that then I may begin
to care. But you’d never be unkind like that, would you?” His hand
stole out and met hers in denial. They kept on assuring each other that,
whatever had befallen other people’s happiness, theirs was unassailable.
They had dawdled through lunch. When at last they rose the room was
nearly empty.
“What next?”
She clapped her hands. “I know. Make this day different from all the
others. Let’s pretend.”
“Pretend what?”
“You’ll see.”
On the Avenue they hailed a hansom and drove the long length of New
York, through the Park to the Eighties on the West Side. Then she told
him: they were to examine apartments, pretending they wanted to rent
one. Wherever they saw a sign up they stopped the cabby and went in to
make inquiries. Sometimes she talked Cockney. Sometimes she was a little
French girl, who had to have everything that the janitor said translated
to her by Teddy. She only once broke down--when the janitor, as ill-luck
would have it, was a Frenchman; then they beat an ignominious retreat,
laughing and covered with confusion.
It was a very jolly game to play with a girl you loved--this pretending
that you were seeking a nest. It was all the jollier because she would
not own that that was the underlying excitement of their pretense. As
they passed from room to room, and when no one was looking, he would
slip his arm about her and kiss her unwilling cheek. “Wait till we’re in
the hansom,” she would whisper. “Oh, Meester Deek, you do embarrass me.”
Try as he would, he could not disguise the fact that he was in love
with her. A light shone in his eyes. This seemed no game, but a natural
preliminary to something that must happen. She was indignant when the
custodians of the apartments took it for granted that they were an
engaged couple. She ungloved her hand that they might see for themselves
that the ring was lacking. “It’s for my mother,” she explained. “Yes, I
like the apartment; but I can’t decide till my mother has seen it” She
referred to Teddy pointedly as “My friend.” The janitors looked
knowing. They smiled sentimentally and put her conduct down to extreme
bashfulness.
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