Twinkles wandered in; seeing that he was alone and that her services
were not required, she wandered out. He got up restlessly. To kill time,
he examined the little piles of books and set them in order. He picked
up a boudoir-cap that she was making, pressing it to his lips because
her hands had touched it. He smiled fondly; even in her usefulness she
was decorative. She made boudoir-caps when buttons needed sewing on her
gloves.
Whatever he did, the eyes of Tom watched him from the photograph on the
piano. He had been hoping for months that she would remove it The eyes
watched him in malicious silence. She had told him that Tom was a sort
of brother. He had never disputed it, but he knew that no man could play
the brother for long with such a girl. He wondered if Tom had found her
lips more accessible, and whether she had ever kissed him in return.
It was getting late. Not quite the evening he had expected! Very few of
his evenings were.
At a sound he turned. She was standing in the doorway, a wrapper
clutched about her, her hair hanging long as at Glastonbury, her bare
feet peeping out from bedroom slippers. She looked half-child, half-elf.
“Oh, it’s you. I thought you’d gone--been gone for hours.”
“Gone! How could I go? We didn’t say good-night.” He lowered his voice,
copying her whisper. Everything seemed to listen in the quietness,
especially Tom’s photograph.
He approached her. If she would be only a tenth as tender to him as she
had been to Fluffy! He was quivering like a leaf. The mystic wind that
blew through him was so gentle that it could only be seen, not heard.
It seemed to fill the room with flutterings. She shook her head, tossing
her hair clear of her shoulders. He halted. Then he seized her hands.
They struggled to free themselves.
“You’re eating my heart out, Desire. I’m good for nothing. You must say
yes. If you don’t love me, you at least like me. You like me immensely,
don’t you? The other will come later.” His voice trembled with the
need of her; it was more like crying. He tried to draw her to him; she
clutched her wrap more tightly, and dodged across the threshold.
Something in him broke. “Aren’t you going to kiss me?”
She closed her eyes in dreamy denial. “Never?”
“How can I tell?”
“Then let me kiss you. You’ve let me do it so often. You’ll at least do
that And--and it’s so nearly Christmas.”
“You’ve kissed me so many, many times. I don’t know why I allow it.” Her
voice sounded infinitely weary.
He let go her hand. His face became ashen. “This can’t go on forever.”
“Shish! You’ll wake Fluffy.” She pressed her finger to her lip. “I know.
It can’t go on forever. Don’t let’s talk about it.”
He turned slowly, and picked up his coat and hat. “You and I can talk of
that or nothing.”
As he approached the hall, she slipped after him into the passage. With
his hand on the latch he looked back, “Then you won’t let me kiss you?”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account