Bildungsromans; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Domestic fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction; Gamblers -- Family relationships -- Fiction
His was in no way a shrewd mind. His respect for Selina was almost
reverence. But he had this advantage: he had married a woman, had lived
with her for two years. She had borne him a child. Selina was a girl in
experience. She was a woman capable of a great deal of passion, but she
did not know that. Passion was a thing no woman possessed, much less
talked about. It simply did not exist, except in men, and then was
something to be ashamed of, like a violent temper, or a weak stomach.
By the first of March he could speak a slow, careful, and fairly
grammatical English. He could master simple sums. By the middle of March
the lessons would cease. There was too much work to do about the
farm—night work as well as day. She found herself trying not to think
about the time when the lessons should cease. She refused to look ahead
to April.
One night, late in February, Selina was conscious that she was trying to
control something. She was trying to keep her eyes away from something.
She realized that she was trying not to look at his hands. She wanted,
crazily, to touch them. She wanted to feel them about her throat. She
wanted to put her lips on his hands—brush the backs of them, slowly,
moistly, with her mouth, lingeringly. She was terribly frightened. She
thought to herself: “I am going crazy. I am losing my mind. There is
something the matter with me. I wonder how I look. I must look queer.”
She said something to make him look up at her. His glance was mild,
undismayed. So this hideous thing did not show in her face. She kept her
eyes resolutely on the book. At half-past eight she closed her book
suddenly. “I’m tired. I think it’s the spring coming on.” She smiled a
little wavering smile. He rose and stretched himself, his great arms
high above his head. Selina shivered.
“Two more weeks,” he said, “is the last lesson. Well, do you think I
have done pretty good—well?”
“Very well,” Selina replied, evenly. She felt very tired.
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