England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Social aspects -- England -- Fiction
Tietjens looked at her attentively, as if with magpie anguish.
"If," Sylvia went on with her denunciation, "you had once in our lives
said to me: 'You whore! You bitch! You killed my mother. May you rot in
hell for it . . . .' If you'd only once said something like it . . .
about the child! About Perowne! . . . you might have done something to
bring us together. . . ."
Tietjens said:
"That's, of course, true!"
"I know," Sylvia said, "you can't help it. . . . But when, in your
famous county family pride--though a youngest son!--you say to yourself:
And I daresay if . . . Oh, Christ! . . . you're shot in the trenches
you'll say it . . . oh, between the saddle and the ground! that you
never did a dishonourable action. . . . And, mind you, I believe that no
other man save one has ever had more right to say it than you. . . ."
Tietjens said:
"You believe that!"
"As I hope to stand before my Redeemer," Sylvia said, "I believe
it. . . . But, in the name of the Almighty, how could any woman live beside
you . . . and be for ever forgiven? Or no: not forgiven: ignored! . . .
Well, be proud when you die because of your honour. But, God, you be
humble about . . . your errors in judgment. _You_ know what it is to
ride a horse for miles with too tight a curb-chain and its tongue cut
almost in half. . . . You remember the groom your father had who had the
trick of turning the hunters out like that. . . . And you horse-whipped
him, and you've told me you've almost cried ever so often afterwards for
thinking of that mare's mouth. . . . Well! Think of _this_ mare's mouth
sometimes! You've ridden me like that for seven years. . . ."
She stopped and then went on again:
"Don't you know, Christopher Tietjens, that there is only one man from
whom a woman could take '_Neither I condemn thee_' and not hate him more
than she hates the fiend! . . ."
Tietjens so looked at her that he contrived to hold her attention.
"I'd like you to let me ask you," he said, "how I could throw stones at
you? I have never disapproved of your actions."
Her hands dropped dispiritedly to her sides.
"Oh, Christopher," she said, "don't carry on that old play acting. I
shall never see you again, very likely, to speak to; You'll sleep with
the Wannop girl to-night: you're going out to be killed to-morrow.
_Let's_ be straight for the next ten minutes or so. And give me your
attention. The Wannop girl can spare that much if she's to have all the
rest. . . ."
She could see that he was giving her his whole mind.
"As you said just now," he exclaimed slowly, "as I hope to meet my
Redeemer I believe you to be a good woman. One that never did a
dishonourable thing."
She recoiled a little in her chair.
"Then!" she said, "you're the wicked man I've always made believe to
think you, though I didn't."
Tietjens said:
"No! . . . Let me try to put it to you as I see it."
She exclaimed:
"No! . . . I've been a wicked woman. I have ruined you. I am not going
to listen to you."
He said:
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