England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Social aspects -- England -- Fiction
She had passed a queer, unnatural week, the feeling dominating its
numbness having been, oddly, that she would have nothing to do on
Friday! This feeling recurred to her whilst she was casting her eyes
over a hundred girls all in their cloth jumpers and men's black ties,
aligned upon asphalte; whilst she was jumping on trams; whilst she was
purchasing the tinned or dried fish that formed the staple diet of
herself and her mother; whilst she was washing-up the dinner-things;
upbraiding the house agent for the state of the bath, or bending closely
over the large but merciless handwriting of the novel of her mother's
that she was typing. It came, half as a joy, half mournfully across her
familiar businesses; she felt as a man might feel who, luxuriating in
the anticipation of leisure, knew that it was obtained by being
compulsorily retired from some laborious but engrossing job. There would
be nothing to do on Fridays!
It was, too, as if a novel had been snatched out of her hand so that she
would never know the end. Of the fairy-tale she knew the end: the
fortunate and adventurous tailor had married his beautiful and
be-princessed goose girl, and was well on the way to burial in
Westminster Abbey--or at any rate to a memorial service, the squire
being actually buried amongst his faithful villagers. But she would
never know whether they, in the end, got together all the blue Dutch
tiles they wanted to line their bathroom. . . . She would never know.
Yet witnessing similar ambitions had made up a great deal of her life.
And, she said to herself, there was another tale ended. On the surface
the story of her love for Tietjens had been static enough. It had begun
in nothing and in nothing it had ended. But, deep down in her being--ah!
it had progressed enough. Through the agency of two women! Before the
scene with Mrs. Duchemin there could, she thought, have been few young
women less preoccupied than she with the sexual substrata, either of
passion or of life. Her months as a domestic servant had accounted for
that, sex, as she had seen it from a back kitchen, having been a
repulsive affair, whilst the knowledge of its manifestations that she
had thus attained had robbed it of the mystery which caused most of the
young women whom she knew to brood upon these subjects.
Her conviction: as to the moral incidence of sex were, she knew, quite
opportunist. Brought up amongst rather "advanced" young people, had she
been publicly challenged to pronounce her views she would probably, out
of loyalty to her comrades, have declared that neither morality nor any
ethical aspects were concerned in the matter. Like most of her young
friends, influenced by the advanced teachers and tendential novelists of
the day, she would have stated herself to advocate an--of course,
enlightened!--promiscuity. That, before the revelations of Mrs.
Duchemin! Actually she had thought very little about the matter.
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