"_24th._--How beautiful must be the heaven of heavens! This
is what I have been thinking during the time I have just spent in
contemplation under a most beautiful winter sky. It is my practice
to open my window before going to bed to see what sort of weather
it is, and, if fine, to enjoy it a moment. To-night I looked
longer than usual; it was so ravishing, this beautiful night. But
for the fear of taking cold I should be there still. I thought of
God, who has made our prison so radiant; I thought of the saints,
who have all these beauteous stars beneath their feet; I thought
of you, who were, perhaps, looking up to them like me. I could
have stayed there easily all night; however, it was necessary to
shut the window to all the beauty outside, and to close the eyes
under curtains. Eran has brought me to-night two letters from
Louise. They are charming, ravishing to the mind, soul, and heart,
and all for me. I know not why I am not transported, intoxicated
with friendship. God knows, however, that I love it!
"No place in the world is so pleasant to me as home. Oh! the happy
home! How I grieve for you, poor exile, so far from it, seeing
only your kindred in thought, being unable to bid good morning or
good night, living a stranger, having father, brother, sisters,
not living with you but elsewhere! All that is sad, but I cannot
desire anything else for you. We cannot have you, but I hope to
see you again, and that consoles me; a thousand times I think of
that, and foresee how happy we shall be."
"_29th._-- ... Oh! how sweet it is, when the rain is heard
pattering, to be by the corner of one's fire, tongs in one's hand,
making sparks! This was my amusement just now. I am very fond of
it; sparks are so pretty! They are the flowers of the chimney.
Really, there are charming things going on about the embers, and,
when I am not occupied, I amuse myself in watching the
phantasmagoria of the hearth. There are a thousand little
hearth-forms coming, going, dilating, changing, disappearing; now
angels, now horned demons, children, old women, butterflies, dogs,
sparrows. One sees a little of everything in the firebrand. I
remember one figure, bearing an expression of heavenly suffering,
which seemed to me to depict a soul in purgatory. I was struck by
it, and should like to have had a painter with me. There was never
a vision more perfect. Notice the logs burning and you will agree
with me that there are beautiful things, and that unless we are
blind we ought not to find time tedious beside a fire. Listen
especially to that little whistle which sometimes comes from below
the burning coal, like a voice that sings. Nothing is more sweet
or pure; one would say it was some very diminutive spirit of fire
that sings."
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