Gervase’s countenance was a sight to see; it changed altogether from the
calm certainty of superior right which had been in it. The first
astonishment did not pass away, but other sentiments came in.
Doubt--slow conviction that there was something in what his father
said--a strong feeling, nevertheless, that it was impossible he could
himself be altogether in the wrong. All these warring sentiments rose
upon the clear and calm conviction of his earlier state, and blurred
that spotless firmament. He drew a long breath.
“It is quite true,” he said--“quite true all you say. You have given me
everything--and I--have had nothing to give in return. Still----” All
nature was in that word--all the certainty of youth that it has a claim
never to be ignored--that its mere existence is response enough; and all
the traditions of family custom, which make the wellbeing of the child
the first object of the father; and the unconscious assumption which
every child instinctively makes, that, after all, its predecessors are
passing away, and itself the permanent interest--an assumption which it
is quite possible to hold along with the most anxious and affectionate
care for these predecessors, and desire to retain them in life and
enjoyment. All these things were in Gervase’s mind, and quite naturally
so. The difficulty was, perhaps, that these old-world relations are
scarcely compatible with the calm and highly reasonable level of
equality on which the young man of the period conceives it possible to
treat with his father, claiming a boundless right of independent
judgment, and the serene satisfaction of taking a higher view, and being
absolutely in the right whoever may be wrong. Gervase fell a little from
that: his reason being appealed to, could not refuse to allow that there
was a great deal in what Mr Burton said. Still, when all was done, was
not the boy aware that he was his father’s pride--that it was he alone
who could continue and renew his father’s house and reputation, and
satisfy that desire of continuance which is in almost every mind? And
this was an impression which it was impossible to resist, which was the
very voice of nature. “Still----” Gervase looked up almost wistfully
into his father’s face. Strong as that feeling was, it was one that
required a grant, an admission, on the other side: it could not be put
forth with calm assurance, as he made his other propositions, in full
certainty of reason as between man and man.
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