American fiction -- Southern States; Short stories, American -- Southern States; Southern States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
In the restlessness that youth thinks is aspiration for the ideal,
particularly for the ideal love, is a large element of craving for place
and interest. After her marriage, at least, Bessie might have had enough of
both; but the obvious purpose was too limited to appeal to her. Now two
appetites and the four seasons supplied motive enough for industry. There
was nothing magnificent in this manifest destiny, but it had the advantage
of being imperative and constant. It was no small tax on her acquired
delicacy, but it gave less time for hunting symptoms. It did not answer the
_Whence, Whither, and Why;_ it pointedly changed the subject. Her work
began to carry her out of herself.
“Bibi dear, what a sorry end to all my promises!”
She had been thinking just that herself with a sense of injury and
imposition; and she was used all her life to having people see everything
as she saw it, from her side only. But Guy had just turned over to his few
creditors the hole in the ground into which so far most of his work had
gone. “Bibi dear, what a sorry end to all my plans!” was what she expected
him to say. And what he did say and what he didn't, met surprised in her
mind and surveyed each other.
“Oh, Guy!” she deprecated, suddenly ashamed. For the first time it occurred
to her to wonder why this had been sent on _him_. With a rush of remorseful
sympathy and appreciation, she slipped down beside his chair. “My poor old
boy!”
He clung to her like a drowning man--Guy, who, after the first single cry
at the blow, had been so self-contained (or self-repressed?) through it
all!
She remembered that she had omitted a good many things lately.
“You're tired to-day,” he said.
“Yes, I am.” She caught at it hurriedly with apologetic self-defence. “I'm
pretty constantly tired lately. And this morning Mrs. Grey was so trying.
She doesn't understand her machine, and she doesn't understand business,
and she was _too_ silly and stupid. I don't wonder you men laugh at us and
don't want us in _your_ affairs!”
“It's all hard on you, Bibi.” There was a lump in his voice. It was the
first time he had been able to speak of it.
“Yes;” her own throat was so strained that for a moment she could not go
on. “But,” it struck her again, “I don't suppose an unbiased observer would
think it exactly festive for you.”
And, to be sure, when one came to think of it, how, pray, was he to blame?
From that day there began to be more than necessity to her work, and more
than work to carry her out of herself.
In the present of commercial femininity we have two types--one, the
business man; the other, an individual without gender, impersonal, capable.
She never does anything ill-bred, certainly, but one no more thinks of
specifying that she is a lady than that her hair is black; it isn't the
point.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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