“Mortally. Let them look at me, you say; well, and you, how will you look at them? Certain passages in your statement are emphasized; you seem to be luxuriating in your own psychology and clutch at each detail, in order to surprise the reader by a callousness which is not really in you. What is this but a haughty defiance of the judge by the accused?” “Where is the defiance? I kept out all personal discussion.” Tikhon was silent. His pale cheeks flushed. “Let us leave that,” Stavrogin said peremptorily. “Allow me to put to you a question on my side: we have now been talking for five minutes since you read that” (he nodded at the pages), “and I do not see in you any expression of aversion or shame.... You don’t seem to be squeamish....” He did not finish.[59] Footnote 59: After “he did not finish” is struck out: “You mean you would like me immediately to express to you my contempt,” Tikhon said firmly. “I shall not conceal anything from you: I was horrified at the great idle force that had been deliberately wasted in abomination. As for the crime itself, many people sin like that, but they live in peace and quiet with their conscience, even considering it to be the inevitable delinquency of youth. There are old men, too, who sin in the same way—yes, lightly and indulgently. The world is full of these horrors. But you have felt the whole depth to a degree which is extremely rare.” “Have you come to respect me after these pages?” Stavrogin said, with a wry smile. “I am not going to answer that straight off. But there certainly is not, nor can there be, a greater and more terrible crime than your behaviour towards the girl.” “Let us stop this measuring by the yard.[60] Perhaps I do not suffer so much as I have made out, and perhaps I have even told many lies against myself,” he added suddenly. Footnote 60: There is struck out: “I am somewhat surprised at your opinion about other people and about the ordinariness of such a crime.” Tikhon once more let this pass in silence.[61] Footnote 61: After the sentence “Tikhon, etc.,” is struck out: “Stavrogin had no thought of going away; on the contrary he began again for some minutes to fall into a reverie.” “And the young lady,”[62] Tikhon began again, “with whom you broke off in Switzerland; where, if I may ask, is she ... at this moment?” Footnote 62: After “lady” is struck out: “very timidly.” “Here.” There was silence again. “Perhaps I did lie much against myself,” Stavrogin persisted once more. “Well, what does it matter that I challenge them by the coarseness of my confession, if you noticed the challenge? I shall make them hate me still more, that’s all. Surely that will make it easier for me.”[63] Footnote 63: All this passage, from “Well” to “easier for me,” is struck out. “That is, anger in you will rouse responsive anger in them, and, in hating, you will feel easier than if you accepted their pity.”