Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
"So Berkeley has turned out a dilettante instead of an
African explorer. I heard he was a minister. He does not
seem to have much ambition even in that line of life. I
should think Armstrong had got the right kind of place for
him. He was a good fellow, but never had much practical
ability. You say very little about Clay. How is old
'Sweetness and Light,' any way? I saw some fluff of his in
one of the magazines,--a 'romance' I think he called it.
This is not an age for scribbling romances. The country
wants something solider. I never took much stock in
philosophers like Berkeley and Clay. There is the same thing
the trouble with them both: they don't want to do any hard
work, and they conceal their laziness under fine
names,--culture, transcendentalism, and what not? 'Feeble
and restless youths, born to inglorious days.'"
This letter may be supplemented by another,--say Exhibit B,--which I
received from Clay not long after:
"MY DEAR POLISSON: It occurs to me that your question the
other day, as to how I was 'getting on,' did not receive as
candid an answer as it deserved. I am afraid that you
carried away an impression of me as of a man who suspected
himself to be a failure, but had not the manliness to
acknowledge it. You will say, perhaps, that there are all
degrees of half success short of absolute failure. But I say
no. In the career which I have chosen, to miss of
success--pronounced, unquestionable success--is to fail; and
I am not weak enough to hide from myself on which side of
the line I fall. The line is a very distinct one, after all.
The fact is, I took the wrong turning, and it is too late to
go back. I am a case of arrested development--a common
enough case. I might give plenty of excellent excuses to my
friends for not having accomplished what they expected me
to. But the world doesn't want apologies; it wants
performance.
"You will think this letter a most extraordinary outburst of
morbid vanity. But while I can afford to have you think me a
failure, I couldn't let you go on thinking me a fraud. That
must be my excuse for writing.
"Yours, as ever, E. CLAY."
This letter moved me deeply by its characteristic mingling of egotism
with elevation of feeling. As I held it open in my hand, and thought
over my classmates' fortunes, I was led to make a few reflections.
From the fact that Armstrong and Berkeley were leading lives that
squarely contradicted their announced ideas and intentions, it was an
obvious but not therefore a true inference that circumstance is
usually stronger than will. Say, rather, that the species of necessity
which consists in character and inborn tendency is stronger than any
resolution to run counter to it.
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