“Am I so weak?” asked Reymund, with some bitterness, and a quiver on his
lip. “Consider. If your own nature had been invested with a coarser
flesh, left out thereby to coarser temptations,--since passions are
things of the flesh,--what would have come of it? Then, if thrown in the
midst of the revel, loving the flash of merriment, the excitement of
chance, and wine and dice were going round--But, no! such speech is
profanity. Yet, Orient, under all habit, under all action, I think there
is that in my soul akin to yours, made to rule it and absorb it, hidden
by the body; but there,--made to be loved by you, as you, all of you,
flaws and beauties, are loved by me!”
“If I could only _see_ your soul,” said Orient, half yielding, contrite,
yet uncertain.
“One day perhaps you will,” answered Reymund, his repeater giving the
hour to his finger-pressure. “Now I must go.”
He rose, stooped again and touched her smooth, cold forehead with his
mouth. The touch sent the blood back to his heart. “With time,” he
murmured. “O, with time! she shall yet--she shall! Good by,--till
Saturday again at five o’clock!” and then was gone.
All that week Reymund walked through his work with an absent mind, as
if his spirit had half left his body, disengaging itself from the
automaton of bone and muscle, as one might say; abstracted and lost in
his thoughts, his wishes, his absolute resolutions. Old haunts had no
attraction for him, old faces brought him no satisfaction, he sought no
pleasure but such as was to be found on the back of that horse possessed
by the spirit of Satan. And so he existed till the sunrise of Saturday,
when, before it should be quite time for the train, he had the horse
brought round for a gallop, as if he would ride the wind and tame the
whirlwind.
In the mean time Orient pursued her way in what, for her, was
perturbation. There seemed to be a riddle in these days beyond her
reading. Penitent over her pride in presuming herself to be stronger
than her lover, conscious that she could not dispense with him, yet full
as sure that she felt no perfect passion for him, there was nothing to
do but marvel what it meant. “I am drawn to him,” she said to herself.
“Ah, I know that well enough! But have I any right to be? If there were
something to confirm me! If I thought the good and beautiful part were
any abiding principle, were anything but love of me! If I could only see
his soul!”
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