Asia -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, English
"You talk as if you believed all that: it's queer damned queer. A
boy kissing a girl in the moonlight and you call it love and poetry
and romance. But you know as well as I do it isn't. It's just a
flicker of the body, it will be cold, dead, this time next year."
He had stopped but nobody spoke and then he continued slowly, almost
sadly: "We're old men and middle-aged men, aren't we? We've all done
that. We remember how we kissed like that in the moonlight or no light
at all. It was pleasant; Lord, I'm not denying that--but some of us
are married and some of us aren't. We're middle-aged--well, think of
your wives, think of--" he stopped again. I looked round. The others
were moving uneasily. It was this kind of thing that people didn't
like in Jessop. He spoke again.
"It's you novelists who're responsible, you know. You've made a world
in which every one is always falling in love--but it's not this world.
Here it's the flicker of the body.
"I don't say there isn't such a thing. There is. I've seen it, but
it's rare, as rare as--as--a perfect horse, an Arab once said to me.
The real thing, it's too queer to be anything but the rarest; it's
the queerest thing in the world. Think of it for a moment, chucking out
of your mind all this business of kisses and moonlight and marriages.
A miserable tailless ape buzzed round through space on this half cold
cinder of an earth, a timid bewildered ignorant savage little beast
always fighting for bare existence. And suddenly it runs up against
another miserable naked tailless ape and immediately everything that
it has ever known dies out of its little puddle of a mind, itself, its
beastly body, its puny wandering desires, the wretched fight for
existence, the whole world. And instead there comes a flame of passion
for something in that other naked ape, not for her body or her mind or
her soul, but for something beautiful mysterious everlasting--yes
that's it the everlasting passion in her which has flamed up in him.
He goes buzzing on through space, but he isn't tired or bewildered or
ignorant any more; he can see his way now even among the stars.
"And that's love, the love which you novelists scatter about so
freely. What does it mean? I don't understand it; it's queer beyond
anything I've ever struck. It isn't animal--that's the point--or
vegetable or mineral. Not one man in ten thousand feels it and not
one woman in twenty thousand. How can they? It's a feeling, a passion
immense, steady, enduring. But not one person in twenty thousand ever
feels anything at all for more than a second, and then it's only a
feeble ripple on the smooth surface of their unconsciousness.
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