Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 3: Analysis of the Sexual Impulse; Love and Pain; The Sexual Impulse in WomenEllis, Havelock
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Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 3: Analysis of the Sexual Impulse; Love and Pain; The Sexual Impulse in Women
Ellis, Havelock
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maternity, while her attention is drawn from abstract ideas to
her children."
HISTORY III.--B. states that his first sexual thoughts and acts
were curiously connected with whipping. At 12 he and another boy
used to beat each other with a cricket bat upon the bare nates,
and afterward indulge in mutual masturbation. He cannot remember
the beginning of his sexual speculation as a child, nor how he
learned masturbation. When he was 13 he used to discuss erotic
matters with a schoolfellow who was in the habit of engaging in
vulvar intercourse with a girl of his own age. The intercourse
was practised on the way home from school, and in a standing
posture. B. embraced the girl in the same way. He is not
interested in the psychological aspects of the sexual emotion.
Although his sex passion was early kindled, he never had commerce
with prostitutes. He thinks that his youthful experiences had no
ill effect upon him morally, mentally, or physically. He
practised masturbation in moderation till he married, at the age
of 31.
HISTORY IV.--"I can remember" (writes the subject) "trotting away
as a youngster about 5 with another boy to 'see a girl's legs';
the idea emanated from the other boy, but I was vaguely
interested. How or where we were going to see the object in
question I do not remember nor anything further than the
intention. When 6 or 7 I remember being put to bed with the nurse
girl and feeling her bare arm with undoubted sexual excitement; I
remember, too, gradually feeling along the arm very cautiously,
fearing the girl would wake and being bitterly disappointed to
find it was merely the arm. I am almost certain I had then no
idea of sex, but the disappointment was actual.
"These are the only early experiences of the sort I can remember.
When about 9 I had others. On the coast of the north of England,
which had then very few visitors and seemed to me very remote, I
lived in a farm-house and used to assist the girls of the farm in
looking after young cattle. These girls certainly instilled
sexual ideas, though I did not realize them with precision. They
used to talk about things a good many of which, I can now see, I
did not then understand as they did. I liked to see these girls
wading with their dresses tucked up. About this time I fell
passionately in love with a girl cousin, but do not remember
having any sensual ideas in regard to her. I cannot say that
these early experiences had any influence on my later sexual
development so far as I am consciously aware. I have always
remembered them vaguely, never with sexual excitement.
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