Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 4: Sexual Selection In ManEllis, Havelock
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Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 4: Sexual Selection In Man
Ellis, Havelock
Sex; Sex (Psychology)
"E.B. was the second woman I had intercourse with. She was a
prostitute, but very young (about 18) and had only been in London
a few months. I met her first in the St. James Restaurant. I
spoke a few words to her. The next day I saw her in the
Burlington Arcade. I was not much attracted to her; she was
pretty, in a coarse, buxom style; vulgar in manners, voice, and
dress. She asked me to go home with her; I refused. She pressed
me; I said I had no money. She still urged me, just to drive home
with her and talk to her while she dressed for the evening. I
consented. We drove to lodgings in Albany Street. We went in. She
proceeded to kiss me. I remained cold, and told her again I had
no money. She then said: 'That does not matter. You remind me of
a boy I love. I want you to be my fancy boy.' I was flattered by
this. I saw a good deal of her. She was sentimental. I never gave
her any money. When I had some, she refused to take it, but
allowed me to spend a little in buying her a present. On the
night before I left London she wept. She wrote me illiterate, but
affectionate letters. One day she wrote to me that she was to be
kept by a man, but that she had made it a condition with him that
she should be allowed to have me. I had never been in love with
her, because of her vulgarity. I therefore took the earliest
opportunity of letting matters cool, by not writing often, etc.
The next thing I remember was my fascination, a few months later,
for S.H.
"She was not a regular prostitute. She had taken a very minor
part in light opera. She was American by birth, young, slim, and
spoke like a lady. Her hair was dyed; her breasts padded. She
acted sentiment, but was less affectionate than E.B. I met her
when she was out of a job. I gave her £2 whenever I met her. She
was not mercenary. She was sensual. I became very much in love
with her. I discovered her, however, writing letters to a fellow
whom I had met one day when I was walking with her. He was only
an acquaintance, but the brother of my most intimate friend. What
I objected to was that in this letter to him she protested she
did not care for me, but could not afford to give me up. She had
to plead guilty, but I was so fascinated by her I still kept in
with her, for a time, until she was kept by a man, and I had
found other women to interest me.
"Owing to the strict regulations made by the university
authorities, prostitutes find it hard to make a living there, and
I never had anything to do with one. My adventures were among the
shopgirl class, and were of a comparatively innocent nature. One
of them, however, M.S., a very undemonstrative shopgirl, was the
only girl not a prostitute with whom I had so far had
intercourse.
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