Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 4: Sexual Selection In ManEllis, Havelock
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Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 4: Sexual Selection In Man
Ellis, Havelock
Sex; Sex (Psychology)
"3. On another occasion I was out bicycling. A boy, of about 10
years of age, offered me a bunch of violets for a penny. I told
him I would give him a shilling to pick me a large bunch. I am
not sure if I had any ulterior motive. He proceeded into a wood
on the side of the road; I dismounted from my machine and
followed him. He was a pretty, dark boy. He made water. I went up
to him and asked him to let me feel his penis. He at once jumped
away, and ran off shrieking. I was frightened, mounted my
bicycle, and rode as fast as I could home.
"There was no sentiment in the above cases. It is also to be
noted that in neither instance did I make any arrangements to see
the person again. As far as I can remember, when once I was
satisfied I felt disgust for my act. In the case of women this
was never so.
"Two of the women described in the foregoing pages stand out
above the others. Perhaps I have not sufficiently shown that in
the cases of W.H. and S.H. I felt a considerable degree of
_passion_. W.H. was the first woman with whom I had had
intercourse; this invested her in my heart, with a peculiar
sentiment. In neither case can I be accused of fickleness.
Indeed, I may say that up to this time I had had no opportunity
of being fickle. I never saw enough, or had enough, of a woman to
get a surfeit of her.
"The case I now come to presents the features of the cases of
W.H. and S.H. in a stronger form. I was then 20; I have since
then married; I am a father; my experiences have been many and
varied; but still I must confess that no other woman has ever
stirred my emotions more than--I doubt if as much as--D.C. Up to
date, if there has been any grand passion in my life, it is my
love for her. D.C., when I got to know her--by talking to her in
the street--was a girl of about 20. She was short and plump; dark
hair; dark, mischievous eyes; a fair complexion; small features;
quiet manners, and a sensual _ensemble_. I do not know what her
father was. He was dead, her mother kept a university lodging
house. She spoke and behaved like a lady. She dressed quietly;
was absolutely unmercenary; her intelligence--i.e., her
intellectual calibre--was not great. Her master-passion was one
thing. The first evening I walked out with her she put her hand
down on my penis, before I had even kissed her, and proposed
intercourse. I was surprised, almost embarrassed; she herself led
me to a wall, and standing up made me do it.
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