Marriage -- Fiction; Short stories, English; Wives -- Fiction
And yet? And yet the young man, especially during the first few weeks
which had followed that sequence of enchanting days, had often felt
piqued, even a little surprised, that the heroine of his amazing
adventure had not taken advantage of his earnest entreaty that she would
give him the chance of meeting her again. He had left it to her to be
mysterious; as for himself, he had seen no reason why he should conceal
from her either his name or his business address.
Many men would not have been so frank, but Theodore Carden, too wise in
feminine lore to claim an infallible knowledge of women, never
remembered having made a mistake as to the moral social standing of a
new feminine acquaintance.
During the few days they had been together, everything had gone to prove
that Pansy was no masquerader from that under-world whose denizens
always filled him with a sensation of mingled aversion and pity. He
could not doubt--he never had doubted--that what she had chosen to tell
him about herself and her private affairs was substantially true. No
man, having heard her speak of it, could fail to understand her
instinctive repulsion from the old husband to whom she had sold herself
into bondage; and as human, if not perhaps quite as worthy of sympathy,
was her restless longing for freedom to lead the pleasant life led by
those of her more fortunate contemporaries whose doings were weekly
chronicled in the society papers which seemed to form her only reading.
Once only had Carden felt for his entrancing companion the slightest
touch of repugnance. He had taken her to a play in which a child played
an important part, and she had suddenly so spoken as to make him realise
with a shock of surprise that she was the mother of children! Yet the
little remark made by her, "I wonder how my little girls are getting
on," had been very natural and even womanly. Then, in answer to a
muttered word or two on his part, she had explained that she preferred
not to have news of her children when she was absent from home, as it
only worried her; even when staying with the old cousin at Upper
Norwood, she made a point of being completely free of all possible home
troubles.
Hearing this gentle, placid explanation of her lack of maternal anxiety,
Carden had put up his hand to his face to hide a smile; he had not been
mistaken; Pansy was indeed the thorough-going little hedonist he had
taken her to be. Still, it was difficult, even rather disturbing, to
think of her as a mother, and as the mother of daughters.
Yet how deep an impression this unmoral, apparently soulless woman had
made on his mind and on his emotional memory! Even now, when he had no
desire, and, above all, must not allow himself to have any desire, ever
to see her again, Theodore Carden felt, almost as keenly as he had done
during the period of their brief intimacy, a morbid curiosity to know
where she lived and had her being.
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