Suffered in vain : $b or, A plaything of fate — John Shaqi
Suffered in vain : $b or, A plaything of fateClay, Bertha M.
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Suffered in vain : $b or, A plaything of fate
Clay, Bertha M.
Dime novels; England -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Popular literature
“That is very unusual with you, having a headache,” said his mother.
“What is the cause of it?”
The young man shrugged his shoulders without replying in words.
His mother urged him, only half-believing in his excuse, to escort her
up-stairs. She had many reasons for desiring his company. Although it
was a little vexatious, perhaps, for so young-looking a woman to be
attended by a son who seemed nearly as old as she did herself, she
always wished for his escort. He was so handsome, so dignified, so
chivalrous, gallant, devoted, in his behavior--there was the mother’s
pride and glory to atone in a measure for the beauty’s mortified
vanity. At this moment she wished to see him with Miss Turquand, to
judge how far affairs were likely to go; she wanted to hear Lady
Quaintree’s opinion, and see how Miss Turquand carried herself beneath
the golden blaze of her new prosperity. But it was in vain she urged
him, and she was piqued by this odd refusal. He was determined to go at
once.
“Well, you must call to-morrow, Paul. I am dying with curiosity to hear
all the rest, and your opinion, and so on.”
Captain Desfrayne escaped. The balmy air cooled his fevered pulses, and
he walked rapidly away into the darkness of the summer’s night.
“Good heavens, what an escape!” he muttered. “I don’t know what
earthly inducement could have impelled me to go up-stairs. My poor
mother! What an ungrateful villain I feel in deceiving her! It was
an accursed day when that brilliant butterfly crossed my path, and
led me away as easily as ever schoolboy was lured into a mad chase on
an idle afternoon, or peasant lout drawn into pursuit of a gleaming
Jack-o’-lantern. There is no peace, no happiness for me henceforth.
I sometimes wish my mother knew all. It would be an infinite weight
lifted off my mind; and yet I dare not--I dare not tell her.”
The desire to be rid of this painful secret rose so strongly within his
breast, that when he had traversed several streets, he abruptly paused
to reflect on the advisability of going to the house in Porchester
Square, where his mother was staying, and awaiting her return, with the
object of telling her precisely how he was situated.
“No,” he at length decided. “I _cannot_ do so to-night. To-morrow,
perhaps, I shall be more courageous. If this unlucky piece of ‘good
fortune,’ as I suppose some folks would style it, had not occurred, I
might have borne my secret some few years longer--maybe forever--safe
locked within my breast, there to gnaw away my life at its ease. But
this misguided old man’s absurd whim has been the fatal means of
letting in a flood of misery now and in the future upon my most unhappy
head. It is well that the girl is cold and seemingly impassive. It is
also providential that she has powerful friends, who will render my
duties merely nominal.”
The sleepy quiet of the aristocratic street through which he was
passing with slow, undecided steps was broken by swift-rolling wheels.
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