French fiction -- 20th century -- Translations into English
But Annette had suffered too much from the thought that Julien might
reproach her some day (even if he never expressed it) if she married
him. When it was no longer possible to ignore the irremediable weakness
of his character and the futile hope of a lasting decision from which
his troubled spirit would no longer try to draw back, she settled the
question in good earnest. She wrote to Julien and told him not to
prolong this useless torment any further. She was suffering, he was
suffering, and they had to live. She had to work for her child, and he
had his own work. She had taken him away from it too long. They had both
been using up their strength, and they had none too much of it. Since
they could not do each other the good they had hoped for, let them not
do each other harm. They must not see each other any more. She thanked
him for all that he had been to her.
Julien did not answer. Silence fell between them. But in their hearts,
bitterness, regret, wounded passion still fought with one another.
XXII
Their love had not remained a secret from those who were close to them.
Leopold had watched it with an annoyance he had not been able to conceal
from Sylvie. His painful memory of that far from brilliant adventure of
his had left in his mind an involuntary resentment which had not become
less active a few months later. Far from it. For he found it possible to
pretend to himself that he had forgotten the reason for it. Sylvie,
already on the watch, was struck by his strange behavior: she observed
him and she found it impossible to doubt that he was jealous. In
accordance with the admirable logic of the heart, she was angry with
Annette. She took a violent dislike to her. In a measure the state of
her health explained these violent reactions. But the unfortunate thing
in such cases is that the reverberation is prolonged beyond the
condition that has caused them.
In October Sylvie gave birth to a little girl. Joy for everybody.
Annette became as passionately attached to the child as if it had been
her own. It gave Sylvie no pleasure to see it in her arms, and she no
longer tried to conceal the hostility that she had hitherto repressed.
Annette, who, for a few weeks, had been listening to unkind words from
her sister, which she attributed to the passing illness, was no longer
able to doubt Sylvie's estrangement. She said nothing, avoiding any
occasion for annoying her. She hoped for a return of the old affection.
Sylvie was on her feet again. The relations between the two sisters
remained apparently the same, and an outsider would not have noticed any
change. But Annette observed in Sylvie a cold animosity that hurt her.
She would have liked to take her hands and ask her, "What's the matter?
What have you against me? Tell me, dear!"
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