Take Me for a Ride: Coming of Age in a Destructive CultLaxer, Mark E.
Religion
Take Me for a Ride: Coming of Age in a Destructive Cult
Laxer, Mark E.
Cults -- United States; Lenz, Frederick, 1950-
He went on to describe the countless inner realms he had been
slipping in and out of lately. The realms, he explained, were so
deep and powerful that the man we had come to know as Atmananda
had all but disappeared inside the clear light of the void.
I was attempting to make sense of his claims, when he said that samadhi
was incomprehensible to the human mind. Then he paused, slowly scanned
the audience, and announced that he would be helping advanced,
sincere seekers in their quest for enlightenment...on his *own*.
"He's on a power trip!" I thought. "Maybe he's been planning this
all along. Maybe he actually believes in it. In either case..."
"You need to realize that I am doing this because it is what
the Infinite wants me to do. It certainly wasn't my idea.
You see, when you reach this stage in the enlightenment process,
you completely surrender your will to the Infinite."
"If that's true," I thought, "no problem. But..."
"Please understand that I am not a guru. I am a teacher.
How can you tell if someone is your teacher? By how you feel
when you meditate with them. By their glow. By how they treat
the people around them. By whether they practice what they preach.
But you have to be careful out there. You have to ask yourself,
'Are they phony or are they genuine? Are they trying to take your money?
Are they trying to sell you spiritual rhetoric laced with subtle,
complex half-truths?'"
"I agree," I thought, "we should watch out. But..."
"You have to ask yourself, 'Does the teacher give individual
counseling when necessary? Provide a community of advanced seekers?
Transmit light inwardly? Teach several spiritual philosophies
and disciplines? Point out traps along the Path? Ward off
the Negative Forces?'" Atmananda inundated us with so many details
that he appeared to be conducting a lesson, not a coup.
"Another way to tell if someone is your teacher," Atmananda said,
turning toward me, "is to see if you have studied with them
in a previous life. Several of you have been with me before.
Mark, for instance, has studied with me in Tibet, Japan, and India.
He doesn't remember very well, but he will. You may have noticed
how easy it is to see his aura."
"He's just saying that!" I thought. Yet I had always felt
a powerful affinity toward those countries. Several students cast
their gaze at me. I felt a rush. I felt powerful. It felt good.
Minutes later, Atmananda suddenly grew bitter. "Don't think
that I don't know what some of you are thinking," he accused,
as he aimed his eagle-like glare. "You realize, of course,
who I *am*," he added haughtily.
"Who are you really, Atmananda?" I wondered. I felt frenzied and dazed,
as if a dark and powerful cyclone had swept Atmananda's train off
its tracks--and me with it. I thought about the time Atmananda had
narrated at a Centre meeting the tale of "The Emperor's New Clothes."
He had likened himself to the story's truthful, outspoken child.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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