It was a sorrowful and a mightily sobered company that came forth again.
The vague terror of public opinion weighed generally on them all; but
there were private and particular horrors on the minds of individuals.
Alan stood in dread of his trustee, already sorely tried. One of the
group was the son of a country minister, another of a judge; John, the
unhappiest of all, had David Nicholson to father, the idea of facing whom
on such a scandalous subject was physically sickening. They stood awhile
consulting under the buttresses of Saint Giles; thence they adjourned to
the lodgings of one of the number in North Castle Street, where (for that
matter) they might have had quite as good a supper, and far better drink,
than in the dangerous paradise from which they had been routed. There,
over an almost tearful glass, they debated their position. Each
explained he had the world to lose if the affair went on, and he appeared
as a witness. It was remarkable what bright prospects were just then in
the very act of opening before each of that little company of youths, and
what pious consideration for the feelings of their families began now to
well from them. Each, moreover, was in an odd state of destitution. Not
one could bear his share of the fine; not one but evinced a wonderful
twinkle of hope that each of the others (in succession) was the very man
who could step in to make good the deficit. One took a high hand; he
could not pay his share; if it went to a trial, he should bolt; he had
always felt the English Bar to be his true sphere. Another branched out
into touching details about his family, and was not listened to. John,
in the midst of this disorderly competition of poverty and meanness, sat
stunned, contemplating the mountain bulk of his misfortunes.
At last, upon a pledge that each should apply to his family with a common
frankness, this convention of unhappy young asses broke up, went down the
common stair, and in the grey of the spring morning, with the streets
lying dead empty all about them, the lamps burning on into the daylight
in diminished lustre, and the birds beginning to sound premonitory notes
from the groves of the town gardens, went each his own way with bowed
head and echoing footfall.
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