I swallowed a strange pang that arose from my heart, and looked out for
something to make a noise with; there was nothing to be had--the decks
were free from everything but tar and tallow. I had never seen such
dirty decks before, yet there was nothing loose lying about. I had not
yet risen--I was afraid to rise--so I pulled off my shoe, and began to
hammer on the deck with the heel of it; then to call and to whistle.
There was no answer! I started up with another pang that made the water
gush to my eyes, and ran astern without looking either to the right or
left. I stretched myself half over the tafferel, and looked for the
schooner. I saw her lying far away astern, a water-logged wreck, with
the other tenders bearing up to her, and signals flying from all their
masts. I tossed my arms and shouted, in the wild hope that I might still
be taken on board some of them. Alas! I felt the unmanned ship speeding
on her dark errand beyond the hope of being overtaken. All the frightful
stories of the Flying Dutchman came back with unnatural vividness upon
my memory. I remembered the unaccountable terror of the wretched captain
of the Gull, his horrible fate, and the invisible agency by which it
seemed accomplished. I thought myself in superhuman hands, and my heart
sank, and my breath failed, and I swooned for fear, as I had already
fallen senseless from fatigue. Let it be remembered that I was a very
young man; although I feel that apology need hardly be made for a fear
so dreadful, and, in such circumstances, so natural, that not even at
this day would the wealth of worlds induce me to spend another hour in
the same ignorance of my situation that then afflicted me. I lifted
my head from the deck with a bewildering recollection of all that had
passed, but as my eye rested on the tall and shining sails overhead, I
could not think that a fabric so beautiful was made to bear any but a
human crew. Be her navigators who they might, I knew that it was the
same whether I faced them fore or aft; so I leaped up, and forced myself
forward, that I might put an end to my horrible suspense at once. From
few, if any, do I apprehend contempt on account of this avowal. The awe
of preternatural agency is part of this life's natural religion; and
sanctioned as it is in the revealed religion that has been vouchsafed to
us, let no man scorn me for acknowledging its influence, while his own
soul must tell him that he is a being existing he knows not how, among
he knows not whom. I am not ashamed to confess, that I walked the deck
of that deserted vessel in excessive fear; from companion and hatchway
I expected every moment to see some inconceivable horror ascend;
and although I held in my breath, and kept myself drawn up in rigid
determination not to flinch from anything that a Christian man should
confront, yet, with all the preparation I could muster, I felt that the
twirling of a straw upon that bare deck would have upset me. My senses,
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