Tales of the Jazz AgeFitzgerald, F. Scott (Francis Scott)
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Tales of the Jazz Age
Fitzgerald, F. Scott (Francis Scott)
Short stories; United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
“I’m afraid she can. That’s one reason I lost my job--she kept calling
up the office all the time, and that was sort of the last straw down
there. She’s got a letter all written to send to my family. Oh, she’s
got me, all right. I’ve got to have some money for her.”
There was an awkward pause. Gordon lay very still, his hands clenched
by his side.
“I’m all in,” he continued, his voice trembling. “I’m half crazy,
Phil. If I hadn’t known you were coming East, I think I’d have killed
myself. I want you to lend me three hundred dollars.”
Dean’s hands, which had been patting his bare ankles, were suddenly
quiet--and the curious uncertainty playing between the two became taut
and strained.
After a second Gordon continued:
“I’ve bled the family until I’m ashamed to ask for another nickel.”
Still Dean made no answer.
“Jewel says she’s got to have two hundred dollars.”
“Tell her where she can go.”
“Yes, that sounds easy, but she’s got a couple of drunken letters I
wrote her. Unfortunately she’s not at all the flabby sort of person
you’d expect.”
Dean made an expression of distaste.
“I can’t stand that sort of woman. You ought to have kept away.”
“I know,” admitted Gordon wearily.
“You’ve got to look at things as they are. If you haven’t got money
you’ve got to work and stay away from women.”
“That’s easy for you to say,” began Gordon, his eyes narrowing.
“You’ve got all the money in the world.”
“I most certainly have not. My family keep darn close tab on what I
spend. Just because I have a little leeway I have to be extra careful
not to abuse it.”
He raised the blind and let in a further flood of sunshine.
“I’m no prig, Lord knows,” he went on deliberately. “I like
pleasure--and I like a lot of it on a vacation like this, but
you’re--you’re in awful shape. I never heard you talk just this way
before. You seem to be sort of bankrupt--morally as well as
financially.”
“Don’t they usually go together?”
Dean shook his head impatiently.
“There’s a regular aura about you that I don’t understand. It’s a sort
of evil.”
“It’s an air of worry and poverty and sleepless nights,” said Gordon,
rather defiantly.
“I don’t know.”
“Oh, I admit I’m depressing. I depress myself. But, my God, Phil, a
week’s rest and a new suit and some ready money and I’d be like--like
I was. Phil, I can draw like a streak, and you know it. But half the
time I haven’t had the money to buy decent drawing materials--and I
can’t draw when I’m tired and discouraged and all in. With a little
ready money I can take a few weeks off and get started.”
“How do I know you wouldn’t use it on some other woman?”
“Why rub it in?” said Gordon, quietly.
“I’m not rubbing it in. I hate to see you this way.”
“Will you lend me the money, Phil?”
“I can’t decide right off. That’s a lot of money and it’ll be darn
inconvenient for me.”
“It’ll be hell for me if you can’t--I know I’m whining, and it’s all
my own fault but--that doesn’t change it.”
“When could you pay it back?”
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