George still held the book, awkwardly shifting it from hand to hand:
at length he held it out; "Take it, dame," he said, "take it; for
I'm going to be married to Jane Dixon, and I must not think any more
about Susan, nor about the days that are passed and gone; it won't
do," and he pushed the book towards Dame Foster, and abruptly opened
the door. "God bless you, George," and Susan held out her hand. He had
closed the latch, and was gone. Her hand dropped to her side, but she
was not mortified. She scarcely knew how it was that she felt so much
less miserable than she expected she would have done, when George was
about to be married to another,--when an eternal barrier was about to
be placed between them,--when she had broken the last link that bound
them to each other. Alas! it must be confessed that if the causes of
her more resigned frame of mind were accurately analyzed, there might
be discovered, among better feelings, a slight admixture of vanity,
which had been soothed by finding George still remembered her with
affection, and by feeling that he did not love Jane Dixon so well as he
had once loved her.
Susan was a good and a generous girl; but in her nature there was a
portion of that quality which, although subdued and chastened by heavy
affliction, is seldom entirely rooted out of the human heart. She did
not wish George to be unhappy on her account; she heartily hoped Jane
would prove a good wife to him; and yet, after having experienced
considerable mortification in the course of his unavoidable neglect of
her, it was a balm to poor frail human nature to feel that she was not
relinquished without a pang.
"My poor girl," said Sarah, after she had watched George's hurried
steps along the road, over the stile, and into the fields beyond the
village,--"my poor girl! I must no longer pray, as I have done, never
to see another sun rise when once my poor Nicholas is in his grave, for
what will you do without me? As long as George was single, I felt you
would never want a friend; but now I must hope to be spared still for
your sake! I once thought, when you were George's wife, and my good man
was at rest, that old Sarah Foster's task would be finished, and that
she might pray the Almighty to release her from these pains. But God's
will be done!" and she bowed her head in meek submission.
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