"Till he fancied the avowal of them could not endanger your happiness,
or, as he imagined, mine. When he took leave of me at Cransley, he
showed some emotion, which caused him to reproach himself for betraying
feelings he had long concealed. Then first I learned he did experience
any feelings which he wished to conceal, and this discovery produced a
revolution in my mind which appalled me. I strove to blind myself as to
the nature of my sentiments, I strove to conquer them,--in vain; and
now, what can I do, but throw myself on your mercy, and implore you
to forgive me for having ever accepted the devotion of an honest man,
whose affection I could not requite as it deserved!" She held out her
hand to him.
"Oh, Blanche! you break my heart!" and he kissed the hand which she did
not withdraw: she felt a tear fall upon it. Her very soul seemed to
melt towards the kind being to whom she was giving so much pain.
"Believe me, Lord Glenrith, when I tell you, that every sentiment of
esteem, respect, and gratitude--every sentiment which my reason can
command, is yours; and that I esteem and respect you too highly to
wish you married to a wife who cannot give you her whole heart. In a
short time you will forget a person who has caused you nothing but
disappointment and annoyance; and you will find many, many girls who
will esteem themselves fortunate in being allowed to devote to you
their first affections. You will soon rejoice in the liberty I now
restore to you. While I have nothing in store for me but contempt
and ridicule, you will find, with some one far superior to me in all
respects, happiness, which I must not hope for."
"Never, Blanche, never!--I shall never marry!" And Lord Glenrith
conscientiously believed what he uttered.
"Before we part, tell me that you forgive Captain De Molton, and that
you believe me when I assure you, that he never intended to interfere
with your interests."
"Yes," he said, "I do believe you, and I will try to forgive De Molton."
Everything was said. Blanche felt that their return to the drawing-room
was very awkward, but there was no other course to pursue. She led the
way to the door--there was nothing left for Lord Glenrith but to follow
after. He felt that something of ridicule always attached itself to his
position; but at the same time he felt injured, and he tried to put a
certain resolute and dignified air into his walk. He looked flushed and
heated, his eye glanced suspiciously and uneasily from side to side,
but he attempted to assume an unembarrassed deportment.
CHAPTER VII.
The smile that on thy lips erewhile
So kindly wont to play--
That could each idle care beguile
Of Love's first golden day,--
Now, when lone Fancy rules the hour,
At evening's lingering close,
Comes o'er my soul with mightier power,
To soothe my real woes.
_Unpublished Poems._
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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