Already dressed, she walked to the door as the bell rang a third time.
Kreisler was serious and a little haggard; different from the day before.
He had expected to be asked in. Instead, hardly saying anything, she came
out on the narrow landing and closed the door behind her. Surprised, he
felt for the first stair. It was eight in the evening, very dark on the
staircase, and he stumbled several times. Bertha felt she _could_ not say
a single word to him. It was just as though some lawyer’s clerk had come
to fetch her for a tragic disagreeable interview, and she, having been
sitting fully dressed for unnecessary hours in advance, were now urging
him silently and violently before her, following.
That afternoon she had received a second letter from Sorbert.
“MY DEAR BERTHA.—Excuse me for the _blague_ I wrote the other
day. There is nothing to be gained in conforming to our old
convention of vagueness. I think we had better say, finally,
that we will try and get used to not seeing each other, and
give up our idea of marriage. Do you agree with me? As you will
see, I am still here, in Paris. I am going to England this
afternoon.
“Toujours affectueusement,
“Votre SORBERT.”
On the receipt of this letter—as on the former occasion a little—she
first of all behaved as she would have done had Sorbert been there.
She acted silent resignation and going about her work as usual for
the benefit of the letter, as though it had been a living person. The
reply to this, written an hour or so before Kreisler arrived, had been
an exaggerated acquiescence. “Of course, Sorbert: far better that we
should part!” But soon this letter began to worry her and threaten her
mannerisms. She was just going to take up a book and read, when, as
though something had called her attention, she put it down, got up, her
head turned over her shoulder, and then suddenly flung herself on the
sofa as though it had been rocks and she plunging on them from a high
cliff. She sobbed until she had tired herself out.
* * * * *
So Kreisler and she walked up the street as though compelled by some very
strange circumstances, only, to be in each other’s company.
He appeared depressed, and to have come also under the spell of some
sort of meaningless duty. His punctuality suggested, too, fatigued and
senseless waiting, careful timing. His temporary destination reached,
he delivered himself up indifferently into her hands. He said something
about its being hot. They said hardly anything, but walked on away from
her house. They showed no _pudeur_ about this peculiar state of mind and
their manners.
Before they got to the Café de l’Observatoire Kreisler was attempting
to make up for his lapse into strangeness, discovering, however, in a
little, that he had not been alone.
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