Bertha looked at the clock inside as they took up their place on the
quieter _terrasse_. When she asked herself how long she would stop she
was astonished.
“Who is that, then?” Kreisler asked, after some moments of gradually
changing silence, when Anastasya began to be mentioned by Bertha. He
showed no interest.
This meeting had been the only event of the day for him. He had looked
forward to it a little at first. But as it approached he got fidgety,
began counting the time, and from being a blessed _something_, it became
a burden. The responsibility of this meeting even seemed too much for
him. He began to ask himself what useless errand he was on now? The
effort of this simple affair worked lamentably on his nerves. He would
not have gone, only the appointment being made and fixed in his mind, and
he having felt it in the distance all day, he knew it would irk him more
if he did _not_ go. He was compelled, in short, to go, to have done with
it. The worrying obsession of not having done it intimidated him. In the
empty evening he would have been at the mercy of this thing-not-done,
like an itch.
Bertha, for her part, recovered. Kreisler’s complete abstraction and
indifference were soothing. He seemed to know as little why he was
there as she, or less, and be only waiting for her to disappear again.
No slight was implied. Her vanity stirred a little. She perhaps came
through this to bring Fräulein Vasek on the boards as she had originally
intended. As to there being anything compromising in this meeting, that
might be disposed of. He did not look like suggesting another.—His
manner on the day before would not have warranted complete calm. And
Elsa’s description of his conduct with women had stuck in her mind. As
the hour of meeting approached it helped her uneasiness. But now she
felt refreshingly relieved. _This_ was the man who had caused her fresh
misgivings! When a dog or cow has passed a trembling child without any
signs of mischief, the child sometimes is inclined to step after it and
put forth a caressing hand.
By his manner and its reflection on her feelings he had created a
situation not unlike that of the dance night. There they sat, she
pressing a little, he civilly apathetic. It seemed for all the world as
though Bertha had run after him somewhere and forced a meeting on him, to
which he had grudgingly come. She was back in what would always be for
him her characteristic rôle. And so now—and again later continually—she
appeared to be following him up, to the discomfort of both, for some
unguessable reason.
“No, I don’t know who you mean,” he said, replying to descriptions of
Anastasya. “A tall girl you say? No, I can’t bring to mind⸺”
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