He impressed you as having inherited himself last week, and as under
a great press of business to grasp the details and resources of the
concern. Not very much satisfaction at his inheritance, and no swank.
Great capacity was printed all over him.—He did not appear to have been
modified as yet by any sedentary, sentimental, or other discipline or
habit. He was at his first push in an ardent and exotic world, with a
good fund of passion from a frigid climate of his own.—His mistakes
he talked over without embarrassment. He felt them deeply. He was
experimental and modest.
A rude and hard infancy, according to Balzac, is best for development
of character. A child learns duplicity, and hardens in defence.—An
enervating childhood of molly-coddling, on the other hand, such as
Tarr’s, has its advantages.—He was an only child of a selfish, vigorous
mother. The long foundation of delicate trustfulness and childishness
makes for a store of illusion to prolong youth and health beyond the
usual term. Tarr, with the Balzac upbringing, would have had a little
too much character, like a rather too muscular man. As it was, he was a
shade too nervous. But his confidence in the backing of character was
unparalleled. You would have thought he had an iron-field behind him.
When he solicited advice, it was transparently a matter of form. But he
appeared to need his own advice to come from himself in public.—Did he
feel himself of more importance in public?—His relation to the world was
definite and complementary. He preferred his own word to come out of the
air; when, that is, issuing from his mouth, it entered either ear as an
independent vibration. He was the kind of man who, if he ever should wish
to influence the world, would do it so that he might touch himself more
plastically through others. He would paint his picture for himself. He
was capable of respect for his self-projection. It had the authority of a
stranger for him.
Butcher knew that his advice was not really solicited.—This he found
rather annoying, as he wanted to meddle. But his opportunity would
come.—Tarr’s affairs with Bertha Lunken were very exasperating. Of all
the drab, dull, and disproportionately long _liaisons_, that one was
unique! He had accepted it as an incomprehensible and silly joke.
“She’s a very good sort. You know, she is phenomenally kind. It’s not
quite so absurd as you think, my question as to whether I should marry
her. Her love is quite beyond question.”
Butcher listened with a slight rolling of the eyes, which was a soft
equivalent for grinding his teeth.
Tarr proceeded:
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