Volker had been a compendious phenomenon in his life, although his cheery
gold had attracted him to the more complete discovery. He had ousted
women, too, from Kreisler’s daily needs. He had become a superstition for
his tall friend.
It was Kreisler’s deadness, his absolute lack of any reason to be
confident and yet perfect aplomb, that mastered his companion. But this
acquired eventually its significance as well, for Kreisler. The inertia
and phlegm, outward sign of depressing everyday Kreisler, had found some
one for whom they were a charm and something to be envied. Kreisler’s
imagination woke shortly after Volker’s. It was as though a peasant
who had always regarded his life as the dullest affair, were suddenly
inspirited about himself by realizing some townsman’s poetic notion of
him. Kreisler’s moody wastefulness and futility had found a _raison
d’être_ and meaning.
Ernst Volker had remained for three vague years becalmed on this empty
sea. Kreisler basked round him, never having to lift his waves and clash
them together as formerly he had been forced sometimes to do. There had
been no appeals to life. Volker had been the guarantor of his peace. His
failure was the omen of the sinking ship, the disappearance of the rats!
Then they had never arrived at terms of friendship. It had been only an
epic acquaintanceship, and Kreisler had taken him about as a parasite
that he pretended not to notice.
There was no question, therefore, of a reproach at desertion. He merely
hopped off on to somebody else. Kreisler was more exasperated at this
than at the defection of a friend, who could be fixed down, and from whom
at last explanation must come. It was an unfair advantage taken. A man
had no right to accompany you in that distant and paradoxical fashion,
get all he could, become ideally useful, unless it was for life.
He watched Soltyk’s success with distant mockery. Volker’s loves were all
husks, of illogical completeness.
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