Kreisler’s one great optimism was a belief in the efficacy of women.—You
did not deliberately go there—at least, he usually did not—unless you
were in straits. But there they were all the time, vast dumping-ground
for sorrow and affliction—a world-dimensioned pawnshop, in which you
could deposit not your dress-suit or garments, but yourself, temporarily,
in exchange for the gold of the human heart. Their hope consisted, no
doubt, in the reasonable uncertainty as to whether you would ever be able
to take yourself out again. Kreisler had got in and out again almost as
many times as his “smokkin” in _its_ pawnshop.
Women were Art or expression for him in this way. They were Man’s
Theatre. The Tragedies played there purged you periodically of the too
violent accumulations of desperate life. There its burden of laughter
as well might be exploded.—Woman was a confirmed _Schauspielerin_ or
play-actress; but coming there for illusion he was willingly moved. Much
might be noticed in common between him and the drunken navvy on Saturday
night, who comes home bellicosely towards his wife, blows raining gladly
at the mere sight of her. He may get practically all the excitement and
exertion he violently needs, without any of the sinister chances a more
real encounter would present. His wife is “his little bit” of unreality,
or play. He can declaim, be outrageous to the top of his bent; can be
maudlin too; all conducted almost as he pleases, with none of the shocks
of the real and too tragic world. In this manner woman was the æsthetic
element in Kreisler’s life. Love, too, always meant unhappy love for
him, with its misunderstandings and wistful separations. He issued
forth solemnly and the better for it. He approached a love affair as the
_deutscher Student_ engages in a student’s duel—no vital part exposed,
but where something spiritually of about the importance of a nose might
be lost; at least stoically certain that blood would be drawn.
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