His nature would probably have sought to fill up the wide, shallow gap
left by Ernst and earlier ties either by another Ernst or, more likely,
a variety of matter. It would have been only a temporary stopping. Now a
gold crown, regal person, had fallen on the hollow.
But his nature was an effete machine and incapable of working on all that
glory. Desperate at dullness, he betook himself to self-lashings. He
would respond to utmost of weakened ability; with certainty of failure,
egotistically, but not at a standstill. Kreisler was a German who, by
all rights and rules of the national temperament, should have committed
suicide some weeks earlier. Anastasya became an _idée fixe_. He was a
machine, dead weight of old iron, that, started, must go dashing on.
His little-dog simile was veritably carried out in his scourings of the
neighbourhood, in hope of crossing Anastasya. But these “courses” gave
no result. Benignant apparition, his roughness had scared it away, and
off the earth, for ever. He entered, even infested, all painting schools
of the quarter. He rapidly pursued distant equivocal figures in streets
and gardens. Each rendered up its little quota of malignant hope, then
presented him with a face of monotonous strangeness.
It was Saturday when Kreisler was found preparing to take his valise
to the Mont de Piété. On the preceding evening he had paid one of his
unaccountable calls on Fräulein Lipmann, the first for some time. He had
a good reason for once. This _salon_ was the only place of comparatively
public assembly in the quarter he had not visited. Entering with his
usual slight air of mystification, he bent to kiss Fräulein Lipmann’s
hand in a vaguely significant fashion.
The blank reciprocal indifference of these calls was thus relieved. It
awoke a vague curiosity on one side, a little playful satisfaction on
the other. This might even have ripened into a sort of understanding and
bonhomie. He did not pursue it or develop the rôle. After a half-hour
of musing on the brink of a stream of conversation and then music, he
suddenly recognized something, flotsam bobbing past. It had bobbed past
before several times. He gradually became steadily aware of it. A dance
at the Bonnington Club, that would take place the following evening, was
the event that arrested him. Why was this familiar? Anastasya! Anastasya
had spoken of it. That was all he could remember. Would she be there?
He at once, and as though he had come there to do so, fished delicately
in this same stream of tepid chatter for an invitation to the dance.
Fräulein Lipmann, the fish he particularly angled for, was backward. They
did not seem to want him very much at the dance. Nevertheless, after an
hour of indefatigable manœuvring, the exertion of many powers seldom
put forth in that _salon_, he secured the form, not the spirit, of an
invitation.
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