England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction; Siblings -- Fiction
"Yes, I am," she persisted. "If I were modern, I should draw out my
own little cigarette-case and offer you an Egyptian or a Virginian, as
if I were a slave-driver in the Babylonian marriage market: but as it
is, you must consume your own smoke like a manufacturing chimney. As I
told you once before, I budded in the 'eighties and blossomed in the
'nineties, and now I'm only fit to be sewn up in lavender-bags and kept
in the linen-cupboard. And now, Reggie, tell me all about it."
So I told her, as briefly and truthfully as I could, the whole story of
my married life and its culminating tragedy. I told of how doubtful I
had been from the beginning of my power to make Fay happy: of my qualms
of conscience as to whether at my age I had a right to ask so young a
girl to marry me: of how Annabel and Frank--especially Frank--had
gradually come between Fay and me: of how I had hated the theatrical
entertainments and all that they involved, and yet for Fay's sake had
upheld them in the teeth of Annabel's opposition: of how further events
had proved that Annabel was right and I was wrong, since the passion
for acting--in conjunction with Frank's influence--had finally driven
Fay from me: of my increasing anger against Frank and my incapacity to
forgive him: of my former gift of healing and of how my enmity towards
him had deprived me of this gift: and finally of how this increasing
and consuming hatred had driven me into the wilderness, and shut me out
from communion with God or man. All this I told without enlargement or
restraint. But from one thing I strenuously refrained: I said no word
of blame nor uttered a single complaint against my darling. Surely, as
her husband, this was the least that I could do. She had weighed me in
her balances and found me wanting and rejected me: but she was still my
wife, and my loyalty to her was unshaken.
All the time that I was pouring into Isabel's sympathetic ears the
feelings that had been pent up in my own breast for two years, she
hardly spoke a word: but her blue eyes never left my face, and I felt
in every fibre of me that she sympathised and understood.
When I had finished there was a short silence, during which I waited
for her verdict, wondering whether she would blame me or Frank or
Annabel: or merely insist on the irrevocableness of the marriage-vow;
and suggest that I should endeavour--by means of that exploded
blunderbuss called marital authority--to compel my wife to come back to
me, whether she wished it or whether she did not.
But to my surprise Lady Chayford did none of these things. Her first
words were--
"You're up against it now, Reggie: what you've got to do is to forgive
Frank Wildacre."
"But I can't," I cried: "it is absolutely impossible."
Isabel nodded her head. "I know that. It was absolutely impossible
for the sick and the maimed and the halt to take up their beds and
walk: but they did it."
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