A weak man would have been confused and stunned, and so sunk helpless
into the leaden arms of despair. But it was not so with Aubrey. There
was that dormant energy within, which, when appealed to, quickly shook
off the weakness contracted by inaction, and told him to _be up and
doing_; and that, not with the fitfulness of mere impulse, but the
constant strength of a well regulated mind, conscious of its critical
position; and also of a calm inflexible determination to vanquish
difficulty, and if possible escape the imminent danger, however long
and doubtful might prove the conflict. Above all, he was consoled and
blessed by the conviction, that nothing could befall him that was not
the ordination of Providence,
----"supremely wise,
Alike in what it gives and what denies;"
that His was the ordering of the sunshine and the gloom, the tempest and
the calm of life. This was to Aubrey--this is--as the humble writer of
these pages (who has had in his time his measure of anxiety and
affliction) has in his soul a profound and intimate persuasion and
conviction of--the only source of real fortitude and resignation, amid
the perplexities, and afflictions, and dangers of life. Depend upon it,
that a secret and scarce acknowledged disbelief, or at least doubt and
distrust of the very existence of God, and of His government of the
world--HIS REAL PRESENCE AND INTERFERENCE with the men and the things of
the world--lies at the bottom of almost all impatience and despair under
adverse circumstances. How can he be impatient, or despairing, who
believes not only the existence of God, and His moral government of the
world, but that He has mercifully vouchsafed to reveal and declare
expressly that the infliction of suffering and sorrow is directly from
Himself, and designed solely for the advantage of His creatures? _If ye
endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he
whom the father chasteneth not? We have had fathers of our flesh which
corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in
subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live? For they verily for a
few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit,
that we might be partakers of his holiness. Now, no chastening for the
present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it
yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which_ _are
exercised thereby. Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the
feeble knees._ While thus benignantly teacheth the voice of God, thought
Aubrey, shall I rather incline mine ear to the blighting whisper of the
Evil One--_a liar, and the father of a lie_, who would fain that I
should become _a fool, saying within my heart there is no God_--or, if I
cannot but believe that there is one, provoking me to _charge Him
foolishly, to curse Him and die_? Not so, however, had Aubrey read the
Scriptures--not so had he learned the Christian religion.
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