acquiring such a position as would enable him to avail himself of their
good offices. Surely all _these_ were cheering considerations! Had he
not even advantages superior to those possessed by many in entering upon
some one of the scenes of honorable struggles for a livelihood, and even
for distinction? He surveyed all the professions with much deliberation.
The army and navy were of course out of the question. There was the
_Church:_ but no--his soul recoiled from the degradation and guilt of
entering that holy calling from mercenary motives, merely as a means of
acquiring a livelihood; and he would rather have perished, than prefer
the prayer uttered by the doomed descendants of one whose lamentable
case is left on record--who _came and_ _crouched for a piece of silver,
and a morsel of bread, saying, Put me, I pray thee, into one of the
priest's offices, that I may eat a piece of bread._[15] A personage of
very high distinction in the Church--of eminent piety and learning--who
was aware of the misfortunes of Aubrey, and well acquainted with his
pure and exemplary character--his learning and acquirements--his fitness
for the ministerial office--wrote to him, offering him every facility
for taking orders, and assuring him that he need not wait long before he
should be placed in a situation of public usefulness. Though he assured
Mr. Aubrey that he believed himself consulting the best interests, both
of Mr. Aubrey and of the Church--the scruples of Mr. Aubrey were not to
be overcome; and he wrote to the kind and venerable prelate, a letter
declining his offers, and assigning reasons which filled him with
profound respect for Mr. Aubrey. Then literature, for which--for real
substantial literature--he possessed superior qualifications, was
proverbially precarious. As for _teaching_--he felt quite unfit for it;
he had not the least inclination for it; 'twas a cheerless scene of
exertion; in which, as it were, he felt his energies _perishing in the
using_. The BAR was the profession to which his tastes and inclinations,
and, he hoped, his qualifications, pointed him. One of the first things
he did, on reaching London, was to apply for information to one
consummately qualified to guide him in the matter. He wrote to the
Attorney-General, soliciting an interview at his chambers upon the
subject of entering the profession; and received an immediate answer,
appointing ten o'clock on Saturday, on which day the Attorney-General
expected to be partially free from public engagements. Precisely at that
hour, Mr. Aubrey entered the chambers of that distinguished person,
whose arrival he had anticipated. Poor Aubrey felt a little nervous and
depressed as the fussy clerk showed him into the room--_as he fancied_,
and only fancied--with an air of patronizing civility, as if aware of
his diminished personal consequence. He stood for a minute or two very
close to Mr. Aubrey, with a sort of confidence in his manner as he
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