Still pressed, as indeed he was, his spirit had by no means lost its
elasticity, supported as he was by a powerful, an unconquerable
WILL--and also by a devout reliance upon the protection of Providence.
Though law is indeed an exhausting and absorbing study, and it was
pursued by Mr. Aubrey with unflagging energy, yet he found time (those
who choose may find time enough for everything) to contribute sensibly
to the support of himself and his family by literary labors, expended
principally upon compositions of an historical and political character,
and which were forwarded from time to time to the distinguished Review
which has been already mentioned. To produce, as he produced, articles
of this description--of considerable length and frequency--requiring
ready, extensive, and accurate knowledge, and careful composition;
original and vigorous in their conception and their execution, and by
their intrinsic merit arresting, immediately on their appearance, the
attention of the public; I say, to do such things--and only in those
precious intervals which ought to have been given to the relaxation of
his strained mental and physical powers--and under the pressure, too, of
such overpowering anxieties as were his--argued surely the possession of
superior energies--of an indomitable resolution. All this while,
moreover, he contrived to preserve an unruffled _temper_--which, with a
man of such sensibilities as his, afforded indeed a signal instance of
self-control; and in short, on all these grounds, Mr. Aubrey appears
really entitled to our deepest sympathy and respect. I spoke of his
anxieties. Suppose, thought he, health should fail him, what was to
become of him, and of those absolutely dependent upon him? Suppose
illness should invade the dear members of his family, what was in
prospect but destitution--or surrendering them up--bitter and
heart-breaking contingency!--to the precarious _charity_ of others. What
would avail all his exhausting labors in the acquisition of professional
knowledge, while his liberty was entirely at the command of Mr.
Titmouse, and Messrs. Quirk, Gammon, and Snap, who might, at any moment,
actuated by mercenary motives, or impelled by caprice, blight all his
prospects, and incarcerate him in a prison! Yet, under this burden--to
adopt the language of Sir Henry Spelman on an analogous occasion, "_non
ingentem solum, sed perpetuis humeris sustinendum_"--Mr. Aubrey stood
firmly. He felt that he was called upon to sustain it; a blessed spirit
ever, as it were, beside him, whispering the consolatory assurance, that
all this was ordered and designed by the Supreme Disposer of events, as
a _trial_ of his constancy, and of his faith, and that the _issue_ was
with HIM. It is mercifully ordained, that "hope springs eternal in the
human breast," and that, too, in every turn and variety of mortal
misery. It was so with Aubrey. So long as he felt his health unimpaired,
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