I said, interrupting him: "Whatever I mean is not the slightest
reflection on either you or her. I really needn't say that. We're
broad-minded people--we don't bother about silly conventions.... But
some people do--you'd be surprised how many--and my point in mentioning
the matter is simply this.... Is it likely that June would risk getting
herself talked about in connection with a man of whom she wasn't rather
fond?"
"I don't think she cares whether people talk about her or not."
"Then depend upon it," I answered, "the crisis has been reached. When a
woman doesn't care whether people talk about her or not, there's only
one conclusion to be drawn. She's in love."
"Oh, that's nonsense--if you're trying to make out that she's in love
with _me_...."
"Perhaps you can think of somebody else, then?"
And so it went on. It was uphill work, I can tell you, trying to
convince Terry that he wasn't the meanest little worm that ever crawled
on the earth.
Towards three o'clock the moment came when I judged it safe to mention
the word "marriage." If, I said, he thought there was any doubt about
her feeling for him, why didn't he put the matter to the obvious test?
"Go to her straightforwardly and say: 'I don't want to give up your
charming society, but I really must have that job. If, however, you
would care to marry me and accompany me to Australia, the difficulty
would be rather neatly solved.'"
_Marriage_? It was absurd to think of it, he said. He had never dreamed
of such a thing, and he never would dream of it. He wouldn't insult her
by even discussing it abstractly. What prospects had he? What sort of a
life could he ask her to share with him? ... There were some things too
ridiculous to be worth discussing, and that was one.
Nevertheless, I objected, he had got to discuss it, because it was the
only thing left to discuss. To my mind, I said, it was only fair that he
_should_ give her the chance of accepting or refusing him. She had shown
pretty plainly that she didn't want him to leave her; that was quite as
much as she could be expected to do on her own. It was for him to take
the next step.
"But--_think_ of it, man! Three hundred a year for the two of us, after
the sort of life she's been used to! It's _monstrous_!"
"That's for her to decide. If she thinks it is, then it is. But if she
thinks it isn't--"
"Well?"
"Then it mightn't be.... You never know. Miracles have been done on
three hundred a year before now."
"No man has a right to expect miracles," he said.
"Every man has a right to perform them," I answered. (Really, for three
o'clock in the morning, our conversation was quite brilliant.)
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