Eurasians -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
“That would be impossible,” he replied. “You would not be happy among my
people in a strange land; you are of another caste or race, and it would
only make you unhappy to go there.”
“I have been your beloved wife, your pyari bibi here, why could I not be
there also? I have lived here all these years, discarded and despised by
my people because I was a sahib’s aurat, woman, but I loved you, I lived
upon the thought of you. The very sound of your footsteps thrilled me
with delight. I have been good enough for you as your wife through all
these years, for you have called me your pyari bibi, your darling wife,
a thousand times, and now you will cast me off and get an English mem
sahib. Allah! Allah! have mercy upon me! O my children, my children!
They are your children. You were my God. I worshiped you when they were
conceived. My love and adoration of you impressed your features upon
them. They are more yours than mine, for I gave them no thought of
myself but all of you. They are yours, of your own flesh and blood. How
can you forsake them? How can you be so cruel to them and me?”
She ceased, bitterly weeping. He stood speechless, somewhat moved by her
piteous appeals, yet as I remember him, he regarded her with a look of
hardened contempt. A moment after uttering the last words she quickly
threw the rupees from her lap, scattering them all over the floor and
leaping from the charpoy, flung herself at his feet and putting her arms
around his legs placed her face upon his boots, wailing piteously and
praying him not to desert his children.
“Throw me aside forever,” she said, “but, oh! the children, your own
children, do not forsake them! For Allah’s sake, take care of them.”
Her long abundant black hair fell over her shoulders. Her face showed
the intense agony of her soul and her large eyes filled with tears that
dropped from her face as if each one was a drop of hot blood from her
heart. He remained silent, as I remember him, with a cold brutal
indifference, without saying a word until she seemed nearly exhausted in
her anguish. He then lifted her up and placed her upon the charpoy, and
taking her hand saying, “I cannot help it, pyari, it is my kismet, I
must go,” and kissing her, said: “Salaam, good-bye, God bless you,” and
rushed from the room.
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