"At last!" she said. "Philip, it is weeks since I set eyes on you. Where
have you been, and what have you done with yourself all this time? Now,
don't say it has only been business. I don't believe you do any, and I
shall send a detective to get on your track. Ah! you wouldn't like that,
I can see it; you gave what novelists call an involuntary shudder."
Then she broke down a little.
"Tea," she asked. "You like it weak, don't you?"
Philip settled himself in the chair she had indicated. He, too, like
Madge, was inclined to temporise, though his reasons for so doing were
different, for his inevitable errand was unpleasant, and the present so
extremely the reverse. Her temporisation on the other hand, was that of
postponing the inevitable for the sake of the impossible.
"Well, it is good anyhow to see you again," he said. "Yes, business
chiefly has stood in my way. But I won't be dishonest; I spent nearly
two hours this afternoon over the portrait."
"What portrait?" asked Madge, with a swiftness that she could not help.
But she would gladly have recalled it. For the present, however, it
appeared that Philip did not notice her vehemence.
"Mine," he said quietly. "I am sitting to Evelyn, you know. He hopes to
have it finished by the twenty-eighth. You shall see it then, but not
till then."
"Yes, keep it for then," she said, again bracing herself to keep up some
sort of attitude which should be natural in a girl to a man she was
shortly going to marry. "It must come as a surprise to me, Philip. But
only tell me: it is good, isn't it? I shan't be disappointed?"
Now, this portrait of himself seemed to Philip more magical work than
even that of Madge. He knew himself pretty well, but this afternoon,
when he was allowed to see it, he felt that Evelyn somehow must have
been inside him to have done that. Brilliant as Madge's portrait was
(the artist himself indeed considering it quite his high-water mark), it
was yet but a mood of Madge that he had caught so correctly and
delineated so unerringly--that mood of reassuring laughter at the
worries and the sorrows of life. But in his own portrait he felt that he
himself was there.
"No, I promise you that you will not be disappointed," he said, "though
I daresay it will make you jump. It isn't on the canvas at all, it seems
to me; it is stepping right out of it. And there is there," he added,
"not only this poor business man, but the man who loves you. He has put
that in. My goodness, how could he have _known_ what that was like?"
Madge gave a sudden little start, but recovered herself immediately. She
could not meet this seriously; it had to be laughed off.
"Well, I don't know what it is like," she said, "because with all my
faults, I've really never loved myself. I never think of myself except
as rather a little brute. It's better to do that oneself, isn't it, not
to leave it to others. Not that it prevents them doing it also."
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