"Yes, most of us are stunted copies of our real selves," he said.
"Imitations of what we might be. And what might one not be?"
The talk had got for him, at any rate, suddenly serious, and he looked
up at Lady Ellington with a sparkling eye.
"Explain," she said.
"Well, it seems to me one cripples oneself in so many ways. One allows
oneself to be nervous, and to be angry, and to be bound by conventions
that are useless and cramping."
"Tall hats, frock-coats?" asked she.
"No, certainly not, because they, at any rate, are perfectly harmless.
But, to take an example of what I mean, it seems to me a ridiculous
convention that we should all consider ourselves obliged to know what is
going on in the world. It does not really do one any good to know that
there is war between China and Japan. What does do us good is not to be
ill-tempered, and never to be sad. Sadness and pessimism are the worst
forms of mental disease I know. And the state will not put sad and
pessimistic people in asylums, or isolate them at any rate so that their
disease should not spread. Such diseases are so frightfully catching,
and they are more fatal than fevers. People die of them, soul and body!"
Lady Ellington felt that Mrs. Home was collecting her eye, and rose.
"What a fascinating theory," she said. "Just what I have always thought.
Ah, I have caught my dress under my chair. You should have castors, Mr.
Home, on your dining-room chairs."
* * * * *
Evelyn moved up next to Tom Merivale after the others had left them.
"Dear old Hermit!" he said. "Now, you've got to give an account of
yourself. Neither Phil nor I have seen you for a year. What have you
been doing?"
Tom let the port pass him.
"I suppose you would call it nothing," said he.
"Ah, but in real life people don't go and live in the New Forest and do
nothing. What have you written in the last year?"
"Not one line. Seriously, I have been doing nothing except a little
gardening and carpentering; just manual labour to keep one sane."'
"Well, it looks as if it suited you. You look well enough, and what is
so odd, you look so much younger."
Tom laughed again.
"Ah, that strikes you, does it?" he said. "I suppose it could not have
been otherwise, though that wasn't my object in going to live there."
"Well, tell us, then!" said Evelyn, rather impatiently. He had begun to
smoke, and smoked in a most characteristic manner; that is to say, that
in little more than a minute his cigarette was consumed down one side,
and was a peninsula of charred paper down the other, while clouds of
smoke ascended from it. Perceiving this, he instantly lit another one.
But Philip rose.
"Tell us afterwards, Tom," he said. "Lady Ellington likes to play
bridge, I know, as soon as dinner is over."
Evelyn rose also.
"Ah, she is like me," he said. "She wants to do things not soon, but
immediately, Philip, how awfully pretty Miss Ellington is. Why wasn't I
told? I should like to paint her."
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