The Autobiography of Mark Rutherford, Edited by his friend Reuben ShapcottWhite, William Hale
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The Autobiography of Mark Rutherford, Edited by his friend Reuben Shapcott
White, William Hale
Religious fiction
The service was a repetition of that in the morning, and when I came down
my host again came forward and presented me with nineteen shillings. The
fee was a guinea, but from that two shillings were abated for my
entertainment. He informed me at the same time that a farmer, who had
been hearing me and who lived five miles on my road, would give me a
lift. He was a very large, stout man, with a rosy countenance, which was
somewhat of a relief after the gruel face of my former friend. We went
round to a stable-yard, and I got into a four-wheeled chaise. His wife
sat with him in front, and a biggish boy sat with me behind.
When we came to a guide-post which pointed down his lane, I got out, and
was dismissed in the dark with the observation—uttered good-naturedly and
jovially, but not very helpfully—that he was “afraid I should have a
wettish walk.” The walk certainly was wettish, and as I had had nothing
to eat or drink since my midday meal, I was miserable and desponding.
But just before I reached home the clouds rolled off with the south-west
wind into detached, fleecy masses, separated by liquid blue gulfs, in
which were sowed the stars, and the effect upon me was what that sight,
thank God, always has been—a sense of the infinite, extinguishing all
mean cares.
I expected to hear no more from my Unitarian acquaintances, and was
therefore greatly surprised when, a week after my visit, I received an
invitation to “settle” amongst them. The usual month’s trial was thought
unnecessary, as I was not altogether a stranger to some of them. I
hardly knew what to do, I could not feel any enthusiasm at the prospect
of the engagement, but, on the other hand, there was nothing else before
me. There is no more helpless person in this world than a minister who
is thrown out of work. At any rate, I should be doing no harm if I went.
I pondered over the matter a good deal, and then reflected that in a case
where every opening is barred save one, it is our duty not to plunge at
an impassable barrier, but to take that one opening, however unpromising
it may be. Accordingly I accepted. My income was to be a hundred a
year, and it was proposed that I should lodge with my friend the retired
dealer, who had the only two rooms in the village which were available.
I went to bid Mardon and Mary good-bye. I had not seen either of them
since the night of the song. To my surprise I found them both away. The
blinds were down and the door locked. A neighbour, who heard me
knocking, came out and told me the news. Mardon had had a dispute with
his employer, and had gone to London to look for work. Mary had gone to
see a relative at some distance, and would remain there until her father
had determined what was to be done.
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