Marie Louise's letter came as an untimely interruption in his sorrow.
For six months or perhaps a year, his thoughts had never been so far
from his own family, who had selected a very bad time to come to him.
Why did they worry him in his solitude? He could not ignore this call,
but it was against his will to reply to it. He asked for Mme. Derize at
the boarding house. He was shown into the drawing-room on the ground
floor, which overlooked Saint Germain-des-Prés, whose pointed steeple
and old gray stones he could see between the branches of the chestnuts,
already in full bloom. It was a peaceful retreat from the noise of
Paris. Elizabeth sent her two children in as scouts. How could he
receive them badly? Marie Louise told him about the visit to the doctor,
and Philippe informed him of his interest in the botanical gardens.
When, in her turn, his wife appeared, with a dismayed expression, he
cruelly assumed his unresponsive manner.
"She knows I am deserted," he thought with irritation. "She is coming to
seek me. She is triumphant."
In seeing him again she experienced neither exaltation nor the hope of
departure. She was conscious of that impression of failure which all
know, who, full of their subject and eager to express it, meet with
indifference or hostility; their tongues are no longer persuasive, and
their words grow weak. She explained this journey as well as she could.
Although he evidenced that he was distant and that this intrusion into
his life displeased him, he was more struck than he showed with the
change he saw in Elizabeth's features and the thinness of her body. One
would have thought, with her flexibility and pallor which made her
appear taller, that she was going to break at the slightest blow of
fate. He was angry with her for that frailty which attracted him
irresistibly, and at the same time alarmed him. In his masculine
selfishness, still making her suffer, and already foreseeing her in his
future, he preferred her to be faithful at a distance. After a few
insignificant words, he could not refrain from asking her:
"Have you been ill?"
"Yes," interrupted Marie Louise. "The doctor scolded her."
"Not at all," answered the young woman. "I am quite well."
She sent her children to play at the other end of the room, but the
little girl often came back to them.
With his bitter tone he put her at variance with herself:
"You refused to receive me last month in Grenoble and you come to
surprise me here."
Confusedly, she murmured:
"The circumstances are not the same now."
"What circumstances?"
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