Bildungsromans; Domestic fiction; England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“He has got out of the way to give me a chance? Well then he’s as
usual simply magnificent. How can I express the bliss of finding myself
enclosed with you in this sweet old security, this really unimagined
sanctity? Nothing’s more charming than suddenly to come across something
sharp and fresh after we’ve thought there was nothing more that could
draw from us a groan. We’ve supposed we’ve had it all, have squeezed the
last impression out of the last disappointment, penetrated to the last
familiarity in the last surprise; then some fine day we find that we
haven’t done justice to life. There are little things that pop up and
make us feel again. What MAY happen is after all incalculable. There’s
just a little chuck of the dice, and for three minutes we win. These,
my dear young lady, are my three minutes. You wouldn’t believe the
amusement I get from them, and how can I possibly tell you? There’s a
faint divine old fragrance here in the room--or doesn’t it perhaps reach
you? I shan’t have lived without it, but I see now I had been afraid
I should. You, on your side, won’t have lived without some touch of
greatness. This moment’s great and you’ve produced it. You were great
when you felt all you COULD produce. Therefore,” Mitchy went on, pausing
once more, as he walked, before a picture, “I won’t pull the whole thing
down by the vulgarity of wishing I too only had a first-rate Cotman.”
“Have you given up some VERY big thing to come?” Nanda replied to this.
“What in the world is very big, my child, but the beauty of this hour?
I haven’t the least idea WHAT, when I got Mr. Longdon’s note, I gave
up. Don’t ask me for an account of anything; everything went--became
imperceptible. I WILL say that for myself: I shed my badness, I do
forget people, with a facility that makes me, for bits, for little
patches, so far as they’re concerned, cease to BE; so that my life is
spotted all over with momentary states in which I’m as the dead of whom
nothing’s said but good.” He had strolled toward her again while she
smiled at him. “I’ve died for this, Nanda.”
“The only difficulty I see,” she presently replied, “is that you ought
to marry a woman really clever and that I’m not quite sure what there
may be of that in Aggie.”
“In Aggie?” her friend echoed very gently. “Is THAT what you’ve sent for
me for--to talk about Aggie?”
“Didn’t it occur to you it might be?”
“That it couldn’t possibly, you mean, be anything else?” He looked about
for the place in which it would express the deepest surrender to the
scene to sit--then sank down with a beautiful prompt submission. “I’ve
no idea of what occurred to me--nothing at least but the sense that I
had occurred to YOU. The occurrence is clay in the hands of the potter.
Do with me what you will.”
“You appreciate everything so wonderfully,” Nanda said, “that it
oughtn’t to be hard for you to appreciate HER. I do dream so you may
save her. That’s why I haven’t waited.”
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