"So utterly without your knowing it." His hand, as he leaned to her, was on the arm of her chair, and, dimly smiling always now, she placed her own on it. "It's enough if _I_ know it." "Oh!" he confusedly breathed, as she herself of late so often had done. "What I long ago said is true. You'll never know now, and I think you ought to be content. You've _had_ it," said May Bartram. "But had what?" "Why what was to have marked you out. The proof of your law. It has acted. I'm too glad," she then bravely added, "to have been able to see what it's _not_." He continued to attach his eyes to her, and with the sense that it was all beyond him, and that _she_ was too, he would still have sharply challenged her hadn't he so felt it an abuse of her weakness to do more than take devoutly what she gave him, take it hushed as to a revelation. If he did speak, it was out of the foreknowledge of his loneliness to come. "If you're glad of what it's 'not' it might then have been worse?" She turned her eyes away, she looked straight before her; with which after a moment: "Well, you know our fears." He wondered. "It's something then we never feared?" On this slowly she turned to him. "Did we ever dream, with all our dreams, that we should sit and talk of it thus?" He tried for a little to make out that they had; but it was as if their dreams, numberless enough, were in solution in some thick cold mist through which thought lost itself. "It might have been that we couldn't talk." "Well"--she did her best for him--"not from this side. This, you see," she said, "is the _other_ side." "I think," poor Marcher returned, "that all sides are the same to me." Then, however, as she gently shook her head in correction: "We mightn't, as it were, have got across--?" "To where we are--no. We're _here_"--she made her weak emphasis. "And much good does it do us!" was her friend's frank comment. "It does us the good it can. It does us the good that _it_ isn't here. It's past. It's behind," said May Bartram. "Before--" but her voice dropped. He had got up, not to tire her, but it was hard to combat his yearning. She after all told him nothing but that his light had failed--which he knew well enough without her. "Before--?" he blankly echoed. "Before you see, it was always to _come_. That kept it present." "Oh I don't care what comes now! Besides," Marcher added, "it seems to me I liked it better present, as you say, than I can like it absent with _your_ absence." "Oh mine!"--and her pale hands made light of it.