English fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
And the more his _camaraderie_ with Miss Brooke became an established
fact, the more did this question of Charlie disturb him. He had
discovered by this time that a harmless friendship between a man and a
girl was by no means unusual among the students and was not necessarily
assumed to imply matrimonial intentions. He knew, moreover, that such
friendships grew rapidly on this soil where the English-speaking
students gravitated together during the years of their voluntary exile.
But, if this thought pacified him as to Miss Brooke and Charlie, the
very pacification carried with it a sting. For it led to the further
tormenting suspicion that Miss Brooke did not take the relationship
between her and himself as seriously as he would have liked her to. Her
conduct and bearing towards him were all he could wish, yet he seemed to
feel behind them a stern limit to the intimacy, a barrier, as it were,
that might bear on its face: "I am put here by way of giving you a
reminder you are not to make any mistakes as to the extent of your
rights over this property."
Sometimes, indeed, in envisaging the position, he came to the conclusion
that this was entirely due to his own imagination and that he might
safely ask her to share his life. But at that point uncertainty would
rise again, warning him that to make any such impulsive proposition just
then might be to jeopardise the future of his romance. The remembrance
of the distress caused him by his effort to determine the precise degree
of Celia's claim on him by reason of his having engaged her for five
dances in the same evening intruded in grotesque contrast now that he
was endeavouring to determine the precise degree of his claim on Miss
Brooke.
Despite these prickings, and despite Charlie, sweetness predominated in
his life. He felt untrammelled and unwatched over, recalling with a
shudder the old strands that had tethered him. Though he wrote regularly
to his mother, whom he had seen twice last autumn, on her way southward
and on her return, all reference to Miss Brooke was excluded from his
letters. He would not discuss his relation to her with anybody else,
foreseeing that would only lead to a deal of useless and perhaps endless
talk.
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