She went home with dragging steps. Before she entered the house she
slipped off her wedding ring and put it into a pocket. She felt more
free without it, could almost imagine that the whole thing was nothing
more, than a bad dream.
She was afraid to face her mother. She went up to her own little room on
the top floor and sat down at the window.
There was not much to be seen from it but roofs and telegraph poles and
wires, but the sky was blue beyond them all, and against her will Faith
thought of the sea, which she had only seen once, years ago, and of
Nicholas Forrester, who was even then being carried away from her across
its blueness.
Since he said good-bye to her she had many times wished him back again,
but now the thought of him made her shiver. She wished never to see him
any more.
In her childishness she somehow fancied that she had only to say she
regretted her marriage and give back everything he had ever given her to
wipe the episode out of her life. She was thankful now that she had not
spent a shilling of his money. She took it all from its hiding place and
made a little parcel of it, with her wedding ring, and addressed it to
the flat where he had taken her for lunch after their marriage.
He would find it when he came back and understand, she thought. She
slipped out and posted it at once, for fear she should be tempted to
change her mind by the sight of the twins' shabby frocks and the memory
of all she could have bought them with the Beggar Man's money.
Then she went into the kitchen to her mother and held out her trembling
bare left hand.
"I've sent it back," she said in a whisper. "And the money--I never want
to see him any more."
Mrs. Ledley stared at her helplessly, then something in the girl's face,
its immature look and innocent eyes, swept the anger and bitterness
from her heart.
She took Faith on to her lap as if she had still been a child, and the
two kissed and cried together.
Mrs. Ledley did not believe Faith would ever see the Beggar Man again.
She thought she knew only too well the type of man he was. She sobbed
out that she was only too thankful to have her daughter safely with her.
"I didn't mean to be hard and cruel," she said over and over again. "It
would have broken my heart if he had taken you away from me."
"He wanted me to go and I wouldn't," Faith said. She tried to believe
that she was quite happy cuddled into her mother's arms, but she knew
that she was not. There was something old and sad in her heart which
would never leave her again she knew. She listened apathetically while
Mrs. Ledley spoke of her husband.
"You haven't forgotten him, Faith? You haven't so soon forgotten your
father? He was so good to you. He loved you all so much. This man ruined
him and caused his death. I know that my little girl could not love such
a man."
"I wanted you to be rich," Faith whispered brokenly. "I wanted
everything for you and the twins."
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