The BigamistYoung, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Philosophy
The Bigamist
Young, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Bigamy -- Fiction; British -- South Africa -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
Pamela made no answer. She bent forward and leaned her face in her
hands and broke into bitter weeping. In a moment he was beside her. He
took her in his arms, and drew her head down to his breast, and held her
so, still sobbing, with her face hidden in her hands. Tenderly he
kissed the bright hair.
"Poor little woman!" he said.
She clung to him, sobbing and weeping in his embrace.
"Oh! I can't," she wailed... "I can't."
Again the light of victory shone in the man's eyes. He held her more
closely.
"No," he said; "we couldn't do it... Never to meet again! ... We
couldn't do it, dear."
She drew back from his embrace and, seating herself in the chair,
continued to weep hopelessly. He fell on his knees beside her.
"I'm a brute to have brought this on you," he muttered. "But I loved
you so... Dearest heart, say you forgive me."
He caught her wrists and pulled her hands from her face and kissed the
tear-drenched eyes.
"Pamela, my darling, forgive me. I meant no harm to you. I never meant
you to know."
She regarded him with brimming eyes.
"Oh! I wish," she said, "that I didn't love you so well."
He kissed her hands. He had won in this first struggle. With patience,
he told himself, he would recover the whole ground.
For an hour Pamela remained with him, talking the matter threadbare.
Arnott did most of the talking; Pamela listened, acquiescing by her
silence to much that he urged in his own defence, occasionally
interrupting him, more occasionally disputing a point. Gradually he
worked round to the subject of their future relations. On this point
Pamela was more difficult. She held views of her own in regard to that;
and the discussion at times took a bitter tone. He pleaded, he argued
eloquently, he even offered concessions. He was patient and displayed a
tender consideration which moved her to a corresponding tenderness, but
did not shake her resolve.
They were still at cross purposes when, heavy with fatigue and misery,
she arose and announced her intention of going to bed. The discussion,
he recognised, would have to be postponed to some future time. This
exasperated him; he left that the delay minimised his chances of
victory. Further wrestling with her conscience might confirm her in her
resolution, would inevitably make persuasion more difficult. Ultimate
victory depended largely on his success in wearing down her scruples
before they had time to harden into a conviction of duty.
He eyed her resentfully, and bit his lip to keep back the sharp words of
reproach which came to his tongue.
The puritanical strain in the composition of a good woman was the most
baffling factor to cope with; the element of passion became a weak, a
futile argument against its frigid strength.
"You are punishing me heavily, Pamela," he said.
She turned towards him slowly. Her sad eyes dwelt for a long moment on
his face and then looked deliberately away.
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