"That is for me," she said to herself, the blood returning to her
stricken heart and pale cheek. "How God sends His creatures to teach us
at the moment when we need His voice! I have seen the cormorant sitting
in his hole in wintry weather,--sitting there for days together, hungry
and cold, trying now and then to get out, and driven back by such a
blast as he cannot meet,--by such a blast as this. And then he sits on
patiently, and moves no more till the wind lulls and the sky clears.
And if his wing is weak at first it soon strengthens. The blast drives
me back to-night; but I, who have thoughts to rest upon, may well bear
what a winged creature can. That screamer was sent to me. I wonder
what has become of it. I hope it is not swept quite away."
But it would not do to sit thinking while the fire was just out, and the
lamp likely to burn only an hour. She lighted the lamp with
difficulty,--with a beating heart and trembling hands, lest the last
available spark should go out first. But the wick caught; and the lamp
was placed in the window, sending, as it seemed to Annie, a gleam
through the night of her own mind, as well as through that of the stormy
air. It quickened her invention and her hopes.
"There is an hour yet," thought she. "I am sure it will burn an hour;
and something may be sent by that time."
She took off her cotton handkerchief, tore off the hem, and ravelled out
the cotton as quickly as she could, and twisted it into a wick which she
thought she could fix by a skewer across a tin cup from which Rollo
drank his whisky when at home. She brought down from the chimney and
looked over rapidly all the oily parts of the fish, and every fatty
portion of the dried meat hung up in the smoke for winter use; and these
she made a desperate endeavour to melt in the flames of her lamp. She
wrung out a few drops,--barely enough to soak her wick. This would not
burn five minutes. She persevered to the last moment,--saying to
herself, "Not once for these seventeen years since I saw my husband
drown, has there been a dark night between this window and the sea. Not
once has my spark been put out: and I will not think it now. God can
kindle fire where He pleases. I have heard tell that people in foreign
countries have seen a lightning-shaft dart down into a forest, and make
a tree blaze up like a torch. God has His own ways."
All the while her hands wrought so busily that she scarcely felt their
aching in the cold of the night. But now her new wick was wanted, for
the old was going out. It blazed up, but she saw it must soon be gone.
She broke up her old stool, all shattered as it was already. Some
splinters she stuck one after another into the lamp; and then she burned
the larger pieces in the hearth, saying to herself incessantly, as if
for support, "God has His own ways."
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