‘We can’t stand staring here all night,’ Abner was saying. She was aware
of him standing beside her in the dusk, holding Gladys to his breast.
She saw the child’s white hands clasped about his neck, as quietly as if
she were asleep. She heard him, but could not stir. Then Abner touched
her upper arm, and the pressure of his fingers went through her body like
fire along a fuse exploding some mine of passion that had lain hidden
beneath her long silence. It burned her like flame, burned her and rent
her. . . . She trembled and turned on him violently. Words of abuse
came tumbling out of her mouth. She did not know or care what she was
saying. She lashed him, wildly, desperately. It was he who was to blame
for all this trouble, he who had persuaded her to take the children to
Bron and allowed her to be insulted in the inn at Redlake; he who had
entangled them in the crowd where Gladys’s leg was broken; and now he’d
lost them, and brought them to a place where they might all die of cold
with his damned foolishness. Some devil inside her brain drove her on,
delighting in the vile things she said, raking up little grudges of the
past and throwing them in his face, revealing, against her will, such
petty miseries as her jealousy of Susie Hind. ‘It’s with her you ought
to be,’ she cried, ‘instead of troubling us! That’s where you ought to
be! You’d better go on and leave us, Gladys and Morgan and me. You
don’t know any more than I do where we are, with the night coming on. We
can’t go a step farther, neither me nor Morgan, poor little thing! Oh,
go! Go! I wish to God I’d never set eyes on you!’ She threw herself
down, exhausted, on the wet grass.
He had stood up to it utterly bewildered. He couldn’t protest, for all
her ravings were so childish, so disconnected, so passionately illogical.
He simply let her go on until she had finished with him. Then he
disengaged Gladys’s arms from his neck and laid her down gently.
‘You’re just about done in,’ he said. ‘It’s natural.’
Again he placed his hand on Mary’s arm, hoping to soothe her and to
persuade. She gave a strange shudder, as though his fingers had been
ice, and burst into tears, covering her face with her hands.
He comforted her clumsily, talking to her as he would have done to a
child, until she no longer shrank from him, being too weak to care. Then
she took hold of his coat and clung to him, still sobbing her heart away.
She was broken . . . quite broken.
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