‘Well, let us pass then,’ said Abner, thinking only of rabbits. ‘Wait
till I come back.’
But she wouldn’t move from her perch. She sat there smiling and swinging
her long legs. Tiger, who couldn’t realise why any scentless human
should hesitate on the verge of such excitements, ran back and looked at
them, making little quick noises of encouragement. Susan called him, and
rather reluctantly he scuttled back over the bridge and jumped up to her
knees licking her hands. She said:
‘Don’t you think I look nice, Abner?’
‘I don’t see nothing wrong with you,’ said Abner, without enthusiasm.
‘Don’t be soft!’ she said. ‘I mean, don’t you want to kiss me?’
He didn’t. He hadn’t thought about such a thing. It was she who was
being soft now. And yet he couldn’t help wanting to try when he saw her
smiling at him from the stile. He kissed her, very clumsily, on the
cheek. He had never kissed any one before, and its softness and coolness
bewildered him. But she wasn’t content with this. She took his face in
both her hands and kissed his lips. He lost his head. He didn’t know
what he was doing. He took her in his arms in a way that was very
different from Mr Bagley’s passionate embrace. It seemed as if he wanted
to kiss the life out of her. She drew back, almost frightened of him,
but he wouldn’t let her go. They left Tiger to his rabbits and wandered
off into the woods. When Susan returned in the darkness Mrs Moseley
could not help remarking how well she looked.
This was no more than the beginning of the adventure. There was nothing
lukewarm about the passion that Susan had thus precipitated. Her
education, which had brought her very nearly to the level of middle-class
prudishness, had not prepared her for Abner’s love-making. Mr Bagley,
she reflected, would have made her timid presents of sweets and, perhaps,
occupied the pew behind hers in church. He would have taken her for
walks in one of the decorous parks on the other side of the city. He
would have held her hand on the tram and paid her spoony compliments.
Abner paid her no compliments, gave her no presents. Nor did he hold her
hand: he held her whole body till she felt that her will was failing and
that her only duty was to obey him. She was terrified by his violence,
ashamed of responding to its crudity. She was almost sorry that she had
provoked him, for now it was she who fled from him and feared to be
overtaken, and though the excitement of the chase thrilled her she could
never escape from the vague threat of its inevitable end. Her mother,
she knew, would have approved of Mr Bagley. What would she think of this
handsome young labourer, this professional footballer? She knew that she
was bound to resist him as long as she could.
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