The black spaniel, and other storiesHichens, Robert
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The black spaniel, and other stories
Hichens, Robert
English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
“My dog was the greatest solace in my life,” he said. “I am not a
sentimental fool. There is nothing either sentimental or foolish
in loving that which, with a whole heart and perfectly, loves you.
And a dog’s devotion really is one of the most perfect, one of the
most touching, and one of the most complete sentiments that can be
manifested by one living creature to another. Not to respond to it
would be absolutely devilish. But one can’t help oneself if one isn’t
made of stone. I won’t bore you with a long account of Whisper’s
devotion and fidelity. Why should I? It’s enough to say that she
loved me as much as a dog can love, and in a dog’s way, with absolute
unselfishness, with entire singleheartedness. I never felt lonely when
she was with me, scarcely ever even dull. When I had been out without
her, and, on my return, she met me at the door, almost hysterically
eager to show her rapture, I—well, I was glad to be alive, and felt
that life was worth while so long as I could evoke such a tempest of
delight in any living creature. A faithful dog, believe me, is the
best bulwark against the coming of cynicism. You can’t be a cynic
when a dog’s cold nose is pushed into your hand, or a dog’s paw is
placed gently and solemnly upon your knee. When I lost Whisper, when I
found out what had been her fate, I felt something that was more than
grief”—he leaned over the table and laid his hand on my arm—“I felt
hatred, burning hatred, against those who had snared and murdered her,
against all who use animals cruelly for the purposes of men.”
His face was transformed. I seemed to see before me a man whom I had
never seen before. This man, I felt, could be not only gentle, but
vindictive, and would be quite capable of expressing himself not only
in words, but also through actions.
“I can understand your bitterness,” I said. “But does not this
recalling of a painful event only stir up recollections that⸺?”
He interrupted me almost roughly.
“That doesn’t matter at all. I want to tell you now. I prefer to.”
“Go on, then,” I said.
He took his hand from my arm, and continued—
“The fate of my companion altered me. It either stirred from sleep,
or actually woke into life, a fierceness that till then I had not
known existed, or could exist, in me. It made me understand that, in
certain circumstances and to certain people, I could be implacable,
almost ferocious; that I could deny the sole right of Providence—you
know the text: why quote it?—to administer that gorgeous justice we
name vengeance; that I could stand up and exclaim, ‘I will repay,’
and repay without fear, without flinching, and even to the uttermost
farthing. But that was not all it did to me. With this awakening, or
this creation of fierceness in me, there came a deepening of pity,
of tenderness for the slaves of man. Yet I was selfish, and I have
remained selfish.”
“How?” I asked, wondering.
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