The Blind Mother, and The Last ConfessionCaine, Hall, Sir
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The Blind Mother, and The Last Confession
Caine, Hall, Sir
Fiction
They were in the room upstairs, where Mercy herself had been born less
than nineteen years before: a little chamber with the low eaves and the
open roof rising to the ridge: a peaceful place with its white-washed
walls and the odor of clean linen. On the pillow of the bed lay the
simple face of the girl-mother, with its fair hair hanging loose and its
blind eyes closed. Mercy had just awakened from the first deep sleep
that comes after all is over, and the long fingers of one of her thin
hands were plucking at the white counterpane. In a nervous voice she
began to speak. Where was Mrs. Ritson? Greta answered that she was
there, and the baby was sleeping on her knee. Anybody else? No, nobody
else. Was it morning? Yes, it was eight in the morning, and her father,
who had not been to bed, had eaten his breakfast, and lighted his pipe
and gone to work. Was the day fine? Very fine. And the sun shining? Yes,
shining beautifully. Was the blind down? Yes, the little white blind was
down. Then all the room was full of that soft light? Oh, yes, full of
it. Except in the corner by the washstand? Well, except in the corner.
Was the washstand still there? Why, yes, it was still there. And
mother's picture on the wall above it? Oh, dear, yes. And the chest of
drawers near the door with the bits of sparkling lead ore on top? Of
course. And the texts pinned on to the wall-paper: "Come unto Me"--eh?
Yes, they were all there. Then everything was just the same? Oh, yes,
everything the same.
"The same," cried Mercy, "everything the same, but, O Lord Jesus, how
different!"
The child was awakened by the shrill sound of her voice, and it began to
whimper, and Greta to hush it, swaying it on her knee, and calling it by
a score of pretty names. Mercy raised her head a moment and listened,
then fell back to the pillow and said, "How glad I am I'm blind!"
"Good gracious, Mercy, what are you saying?" said Greta.
"I'm glad I can't see it."
"Mercy!"
"Ah, you're different, Mrs. Ritson. I was thinking of that last night.
When your time comes perhaps you'll be afraid you'll die, but you'll
never be afraid you'll not. And you'll say to yourself, 'It will be over
soon, and then what joy!' That wasn't my case. When I was at the worst I
could only think, 'It's dreadful now, but oh, to-morrow all the world
will be different.'"
One poor little day changed all this. Toward sunset the child had to be
given the breast for the first time. Ah! that mystery of life, that
mystery of motherhood, what are the accidents of social law, the big
conventions of virtue and vice, of honor and disgrace, before the touch
of the spreading fingers of a babe as they fasten on the mother's
breast! Mercy thought no more of her shame.
She had her baby for it, at all events. The world was not utterly
desolate. After all, God was very good!
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